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some stickers i'm working on for my dog merch shop ill one day open

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i'm going to try to work on some old owed work and then if i can clear enough off, maybe reopen for commissions and store all that money away for a new place. im just hoping there's nothing thatll have any long term effects when i move out

i think i give up for the time being. theres no point in having a fundraiser up exposing some of the most humiliating things im dealing with when there's nothing that can come from it. my mom still stalks my accounts and the last thing i need is for her to have another thing to giggle about.

ive been having constant migraines and an itchy throat, my house and my clothes are musty, i don't know how to press the issue with my landlord without being forced to move out or leave.

please share or help if you can, anything means a lot!! my birds are my biggest worry, i can't lose them.

if it's glaucoma we can handle it with medication and eventually get his eye removed but if it ends up being cancer idk if he'd need more than having it removed but it's just all very spooky. none of them except for this last vet have taken me seriously so i'm hoping we get it figured out asap

he definitely has an ulcer now, but the high pressure was from before the first mark and it's like.. a red smudge that's visibly raised? and his eye's always been just slightly bigger than his other one, but i can't keep treating him for glaucoma to see if that's what it is until after his ulcer :(

there'll always be this fear that i'm going to lose him the way that i lost indie. sudden and traumatic. he's around 7 now and i'm just like. ah.

my pets are my reason for trying my best to stay alive but good LORD they're all menaces!!

shepherd they get in. even with his dog aggression, we did a lot of redirecting while in the waiting room and he was mostly quiet and checking in. we're working on cooperative care too because he doesn't enjoy the vet doing anything to his eye so i have to usually be a huge part of it.

he's on three different medications now and we have a follow up on monday. cancer is another possibility. regardless if it's glaucoma or cancer, i need to get that eye taken out. it's just been really stressful the last few weeks. on the bright side, the vet's office said he's the most well behaved/

and this time another vet saw it and just went "oh. let's check for an ulcer" and so they did the stain test and he just. has a huge ulcer. and then they said that recent studies show that treating for glaucoma when the dog has ulcers can make the ulcers worse. like why didnt they think to check??

from him bumping it. showed them a pic and everything. they said it was fine, but they think he has glaucoma, so gave me eye drops to treat. at the end of his treatment right before his followup, theres a NEW red section in his eye, and there's more discharge and it's discolored. so we go back//

made an appt with a diff vet. the red mark cleared up but then turned into this cloudy scar almost? explained that they need to check his bad eye first bc he doesnt like it. the eye pressure was even HIGHER this time. 44 instead of 32. the average is around 20. said the red mark was likely just//

the first vet to test his eye pressure tested his good eye first, and when he didn't like it, they tested the blind one and said his eye pressure being abnormally high in it was just b/c he was stressed. i was like ok.

then he developed this red mark in it, started having extra discharge, so i//

he's been blind in his eye the whole time i've had him. i don't know what happened but it's always been cloudy, he's totally blind. three different vets have seen him now and it's a struggle getting a direct answer as to what he has going on. it could be glaucoma, it could be cancer, who knows.

haven't really been around much. atlas is very likely going to lose his right eye but there's so many variables right now. i'm just scared

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have started paying off old credit cards in collections, i have no reason to really do paid work and i just like seeing people happy honestly