It’s kinda scary when I think of if anyone else had my gifts and talents or essence, how they would misuse it for evil

And that’s why despite how charasmatic and spiritual I am I could never start a cult because it goes against my values lmfao I’ve had people tell me they would follow me to the ends of the earth and I’m like it ain’t that serious

I don’t like indoctrination and that was something I came to find even when I was in seminary

Why do I have to brainwash people?! Why can’t people simply be and think for themselves and come to their own conclusions

It’s my journey to grapple with whatever but I’m leaning in to finding the truth of what my ancestors were doing pre colonialism and so rather identify with that

It’s wild because I even stopped talking and praying to God because of this, because of the atrocities in this world and how it’s oppressed my people

And 15 years ago I was a charismatic evangelist some may say I’m weak in my faith, I just say I’ve evolved

I feel like this whom Kevon phenomenon is triggering my trauma with church tho so that’s that 😭 big ups to him but it’s also opening a can of worms and rightfully so

That ending sucked smh too much drama and bleeding to just end like that lmfao

I’m like how are yall not concussed or even getting checked fr fr

Bruh I’m not looking at forks the same after this show #queenofvilains

Bruh I’m crying laughing at how everyone at some point on this Queens of Villains show are all bleeding from the head 😭😭😭😭😭🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣😩😩😩😩😩😩

Appreciate you sis 🥹💜🫂

I’m so grateful to be alive after experiencing some nefarious shit smh

But America is just as worse so maybe I should take a shit at the Us Capitol 😭

And the fact that people will actually wanna tour these countries like dafuq , I would go to your country to take a shit on the steps of your embassy

Like I don’t get how the Netherlands just get to frolick into the fucking horizons after the shit they did

Yethhhh

Positive propaganda! Better get you oneee. 🤭🙂‍↕️ ♊️

Ooo me likey lol

And Fuck white supremacy!!!!!! Yall can go choke on your own feces

And then I’m having to navigate me even being in this country and witnessing the evils that have transpired, this country don’t even care about children dafuq

These Euro countries got good PR because they be just going about their ways yet YALL FUCKING DID THIS SHIT TO US?????

Like WTF the Dutch had to do with Indonesia even? Fuck yall and fuck yall ancestors for even beginning this travesty towards the South Pacific

When I’m gone this is all going to continue on, I gotta say same shit before my last breath

We all have roles to play and I’m just learning what my role is

If I wanna advocate for us I have to learn about us

That is to say that I’m taking upon myself to research and learn about all the nations of Pasifika because there is so much to be learned

But my encounter with her and the solidarity I felt rings true because even on opposing sides of evil I realize that when it truly comes down to it, we humans just want to live in peace! Like wtf

I also made friends with a Dutch Indonesian Punk rock girl in the last few years and my oh my the reason we truly bonded was unpacking colonialism and how it’s affected our people and holding space

If I can’t stand up for the nations in Pasifika , why am I even here?????

Within Papua New Guinea are a thousand languages and tribes even

my Melanesian brothers and sisters are under attack for simply existing and since this all began when the Dutch colonized Indonesia, Indonesia has continued the colonization by default since gaining independence from the Dutch