I haven’t posted in a while here so to compensate here, a couple of outfits

Just chilling with the mimikyu

I need so badly to work on myself and lose weight specially but I cannot find the force to go to the gym when I’m free.

The sun came out today🤩, also my white hairs think they are antlers today hahaha🫠

Different moments but just one thing comes to mind. It’s not fkn easy to let the past go. I try but memories come back always not as strongly as before but still. And then the future just looks grim

Redoing the color always makes me think about doing more to my hair

Hello hello, it’s the end of the year 🫶🏼 I hope that everyone has a nice day 🫶🏼

I haven’t celebrated one year of HRT buuuut I made a little video (tbh I made it to see how many people unfollowed but hey it also works as a recap)

Beetlejuice hoodie! And yeah I just roam at home like this 👉🏼👈🏼

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So happy today I got the first volume of trigun deluxe edition. Also I had my endo visit and everything went well.

I’m really going crazy this lasts days, it seems like I’m just making the same fk mistakes as always. My mind is just telling me that I don’t deserve anything good. Am I really destined to just rot in a dark corner in the room? I think so.
I don’t know anymore. What am I supposed to do? 😩

Yesterday I liked my outfit so much that I took a lot of pics and got a lot of compliments. I’m getting used to them but still feels surreal. Also getting over what I’m starting to believe was a horrible decision 😞

Feeling better, meeting new people, understanding myself more. This month has been going really well

A fit test without makeup 👉🏼👈🏼

Getting better and feeling better thanks to a person that made me remember how nice being appreciated can be

How to make me happy? Take me out (anime/game conventions are specially awesome) and let me buy mimikyus and kimonos 👉🏼👈🏼. This weekend was awesome cause of this and I was so happy even though I made a slight error at the end of the day but still I’m happy.

Yeah like sometimes it’s really hard to come to understand what’s gonna happen. Like I still hope to find that kind of people that remain but I’m afraid I won’t ever do

Having a couple of rough days and feeling empty. It’s not easy but I’m getting used to it. Like I don’t want to be alone but I don’t seem to be able to keep people beside me so I think it’s better to get used to it 👍🏼

Okay after a day of suffering (thanks disforia) I think I’m better and overcompensated a little bit by dressing up just to go to work buuuut I feel nice, so let’s goooo.

Disforia day! Let’s goooo I can’t even look at myself in the mirror. The scars some people leave are really, really awful. Talking about people who you truly cared for and would do anything for. At the end they just left leaving a giant hole.

And the week began moving like always… towards s..t, like I was so happy this time and then the disforia, loneliness, self hate and anxiety made a good mix and shoved it down my throat 👍🏼

This week is beginning kinda ok, let’s see if it continues like this or just goes down like always 😩

Infatti ringrazio di usare il telefono in inglese 😩

The hateful moment when you can’t decide if you wanna go to the gym suffering the cold outside or remain at home in the warm 🧐

Kinda been getting better and feeling better like some days I see myself really good then the disforia comes and I feel like I wouldn’t be love by anyone. Don’t know if is just disforia or also the scars left by some people but i just want to move forward and find a new place for myself.

Thank you 🥹🫶🏼

Twitch Twitch is the world

I would love to be in the list even though I’m having a really hard time streaming as I can’t have a fixed schedule 🥺 still I’m trying. Twitch.tv/mia_mikyu 👉🏼👈🏼

Night shift today will be starting the next shadowhunters book and a nice cup of tea. Also I have to say thanks to this little fella who’s keeping my feet nice and warm in this horrible cold night 🥹

Today I’ve had an awful afternoon, I remembered I had the wrong shift so I was 8 hours early. Then I went on a mini shopping trip and had sad memories pop up and during that my psychologist msgd me saying if everything was ok cause I was already 15 min late to our session then 30 min late in total 👍🏼