I'll definitely ask my doctor about it bc im so good at deciding it's all in my head ive already calmed down and decided I'm fine but ill change my mind the next time I stand up so yeah I'll just do the test and know for sure

That's so smart thank you! And that's for your advice and listening I appreciate it so much I really crashed out for a second there 😭💜

Yeah thats true i gotta try that. Honestly this might be the push I needed to recover bc holy shit i feel so bad 💀

I throw up and get a migraine any time I try to sit in a hottub and I dont see many other people doing that? Sorry im like spamming right now i just feel like I need to actually address this and im like frustrated and sad and I really dont want to struggle so much anymore I didn't even know I was

Like even on a peak physical day like eating lots of healthy food and not doing drugs I still lowkey feel like shit and like I've been writing it off for a long time but I guess restricting made it a lot worse and I can barely function sometimes now 💀

Oh yes absolutely and tbh I have been blaming restriction and it definitely made it worse but like I remember this starting when I was 18 or 19 like at least a few years ago and I spent most of that time not restricting so I am kind of sure it's not the sole cause? Yeah I gotta stop res tho 💀

Like i feel too sick to get up right now if I wanted to like I could if I was at gun point though? It would just really really suck and im not sick i just got too hot and I feel so fucking dramatic I threw up??? I have to stand up in like 3 steps or I pass out? Am I stupid what am I doing wrong 😭

I really hope there's nothing physically wrong with me but I've spent most of my life wondering why I seemed to feel so much worse than everyone around me. What do you mean everyone doesnt just feel like shit constantly 💀 no fucking wonder everything is a struggle i think im supposed to feel ok??

I highlighted everything i related to chat should I get tested 🫩 what if they take away my adhd meds 🥲

Also i just dont think anyone will believe me enough to offer a test so it's cool like theres not a cure anyway i can just. Idk. Smoke weed about it.

I'm 99% sure I have POTS and i have thought that for a couple years but I am so scared to get tested i cannot do tilt tables i vomit or pass out its like torture there's gotta be another way

I threw up and in my defense all I had was coffee like an idiot and its 90 degrees like yes I've been drinking water but not enough idk my head is killing lmao anywayyyy I'm just gonna get back to it at 5am tomorrow fuck the sun rn fukc it hard

110

This job is ill suited to someone actively restricting

Im moving to Oregon next spring! I've lived there before in roseburg, and it wasn't that small but yeah there was very few options 💀

Intuitive eating literally doesnt work for everyone i would either eat nothing but coffee or go on big gluten binges both are terrible for me lmao

I keep wanting to throw up so im going slow and taking breaks but im doing the whole orchard it might take days lmaoooooo whatever I need weed money and I can keep anything I find in here. Mainly lemons.

Oh they're crazy thorns i didn't know either until I moved here but lemons apparently hate being eaten. Sour and thorns??? We make lemonade lmao

Send help im hauling lemon branches today 😭

TLDR: I'll get 10k steps when the stars align just right but honestly as long as i get up and moving a little everyday I dont care about my step count 💀

Yeah when I havent walked in a long time or when Im heavier and carrying more weight, 2k is where I start too, it's just enough to get yourself started which is what's most important 😭 right now I'm lucky to get more than 3k idk I've been sick a lot and it's already hot here 😭 idc

Yeah I'm doing a summer theme i got heatstroke today in April I can call it summer all I want

I think there's such diminishing returns on walking idk. I mean I also have health problems that slow me down, but I also just prefer getting 3-9k steps. Tones my legs, burns off a snack, and I don't get hungry like I do when I get 20k. Also 20k takes all day for me that's a waste of a day tbh 💀

Thats black beans avocado in the turkey it was better than it looked but thats not saying but bc it looked like actual shit

For my next trick I wont explain that im tracking again

Thanks ladies

Ty 😭 I got gendered masc in leggings the other day I feel like ive really made it lmaooo

Mirrored sunglasses so if anyone asks what my problem is I don't have to say anything

I want to say yes maybe?? Idk I only watch my fiancé's stories and like his posts like lowkey I don't even watch my friend's stories ever. It's a lot of effort? For some people? But he's doing it? the only person I respond to immediately is my fiance 😭 everyone else gets to wait 3hrs-3months

Wait fjfjfhfhf he sent a long message complaining that he feels like a selfish child for complaining that his friends have problems FJFJHFHFHFHF Im sorry I know this is an annoying situation but my guy??? The lack of awareness? Im ded???