Chat i caught bigger feelings for his brother, this saga is wilding RN

I forgot how good it feels to be me

Doctor was talking to me about someone as an adult being female born with basically no uterus. Im my no filter act of wisdom i say outloud "must be nice" and she laughs then says "not if your trying to have kids"

If the music is louder then my panic attack, it cant catch me karen

Ah i love dealing with anxiety with even heavier noise and throwing on some hard style

I dont need to, it stinky lowkey

Do you ever gender so hard you become a femboy

Why is spironolactone minty???

Went back and started making ginger edits to all my avis again,,, really did make me feel like myself again. May not help everything but every little bit helps sometimes

I wish to be loved never lusted

'All you had to do was pay us enough to live. There goes your inventory': video shows employee setting fire to Kimberly Clark warehouse in Southern California, destroying it completely

My biggest fear was no one thinking im gay and wasnt queer enough, ends up everyone assumes im gay LOL

Coworker: you wanna go for a walk? Make you feel better?

Me, a Puppy girl: y e a h

She doesn't know but she knows

I got called "I got called Lesbianly bisexual" by my friend yesterday. They basically confirmed everyone thinks im gay 🤣

I could be a good girlfriend... I swear

Thank you trudyyy

Please give me the social aptitude to sink this story.. im willing to work for it this time. Im willing to do the work...
I just need the opportunity to show him

Im cooked, my entire youtube search engine is "yearning" playlists

I have a type... but please let this one be it. I want out of the pain. I wanna see him be soft, I wanna help him carry the burden of his pain.
FUCK.

Trans people deserve a spot at the table. Transmasc is a term i hold dearly. My confidence wavers day to day of feeling like i am "trans enough" or "queer enoougg" but the term holds me in a warm blanket. Keeps me safe.

Fuck man, I really like what I saw and I really want it but FUCK that means I need to figure out how to express interest and companionship but I literally dont know h o w to be normal and approach him

How to approach someone with romantic intent when theyre busy and never have time. Autistic as fuck over text with zero social prowess..
Fuck im so easy...

Small moments you can just see why people like someone. You get to see that moment of true character from someone and who they truly are as a person

Urge to download dating apps again...

Mixed bag emotionally today,,,

I know what goes on in my brain but ive always felt like its easier to explain my moods in this way. Idk im drunk

Ive never seen myself as a system but ive always kind of compartmentalized myself into different personality traits. Im surrounded by systems so ive found it to be more easy way to explain it. I have Host, me Rain the masc protector Ace, Boy brain Lucas, Lilth the succubus and Little Lily.

I start desiring things that are much more depraved and darker when my mental health suffers and im afraid of who I become. I just wanna feel like a normal person again..

From everyone and anyone I considered close due to some sort of mental disorder. I have pushed everyone away enough I need to learn how to properly self care and not be destructive as soon as I am left alone with myself for 6 mins. I realize a lot of me gets super twisted when my mentality goes-

Like im a constant burden. I know its partially I need to love myself more but man is lonely down here... I need to get out of the house. I need to live but it feels so intimidating trying to even figure out how to do that especially with my work schedule... im so lost and feel like ive detached-