Somewhere in Europe…

Had my first truly, truly good day yesterday for the first time in a long time 🥹

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For your consideration, my new film Funny Guy. It was made with a lot of love & passion. I hope you enjoy.

Any account that’s not the one I’m currently responding from is fake lol

Still alive.

When I’m gone, please know that I tried my best and that I had fun. That I loved hard and truly lived every day like it was my last. All I ever wanted to do was feel safe. All I ever wanted was to be loved, unconditionally.

I have wanted to die so many times in my life. I thankfully failed every time. But what if one of these times I actually succeed? Who will even care?

I’ve overcome so much in my life. Made it out of poverty with only hard work and endless determination. Lived through trauma, abuse, assault, violence. I always got back up and kept trying. But I don’t feel like trying anymore.

I have been hiding my pain for so long, putting on a brave face and pretending everything is fine. It’s not fine. I’m not fine. The bad thoughts are very loud sometimes and it scares me.

I’m going to be very honest and vulnerable here. I have been dealing with a deep depression for months now. I think about killing myself everyday. I want so badly to be ok and to have hope that life is worth living again. But I don’t see an end in sight.

ugh I want one so badly but I’m scared of the hole it’ll leave in my face 😅

My LAST PRO SHOOT of the year!!!!! 🎉🎉🎉 And for my fav Jules Jordan too! This scene is soooo fire, you won’t want to miss this one 😮‍💨

Next year I want to go harder and work harder than ever before.

I’m so bad at updating here but I don’t even have 1k followers and it makes me feel like I’m screaming into the void!!!!!! 😤😤😤

Utah 📍

Seeing myself on the big screen the second I walk into the @avn.bsky.social Awards nomination party was so cool 🥹❤️😭 THAT’S ME!!!!! 🫢

Icing my swollen eyes with a frozen Tito’s bottle before the red carpet 🙃

I really love @connperignon.bsky.social !

Thank you!!!! 🫶

Congrats to @onlyjewelzblu.bsky.social on her 8 XMAs nominations, @connperignon.bsky.social on her 5, @camistrella.bsky.social on her 2 nominations

FIVE (5!!!!!) XBIZ nominations last night!!!!!! THANK YOU 🤩‼️

I’m leaving the country early next month so I won’t be listing the merch I already have in stock rn bc I won’t be able to ship it, but come Jan….. 😬😬😬

I have SO much sick ass merch planned for you guys next year! Everything will be debuting at the first conventions and then will be available online as well! Y’all better buy some 😤

One day, when I’m retired from any in-person work, I will split my tongue and have a lil snake tongue 🐍

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Sending a notarized handwritten letter in the mail just to cancel a gym membership 😭 France is the worst with this shit

But also likeeeeee guys use your brain, I would never solicit $ from you in the DMs please!

Catfish scammer accounts are the literal worst!!!!! Why don’t you get a fucking JOB instead of ripping every single piece of content and social media account of mine to try to scam fans into sending you money???? Crumb

Follow the real @connperignon.bsky.social !

(“connieperignon” is a catfish)