Desperate for some kind of reset, a lot of maintenance work, and paying down a lot of debt. Autumn is the season for Finding Out. ⚫⚪

I don't feel depressed, but melancholic. The outside is spring, but my life is in autumn. There were some fruits, but largely it is just withering. 🌹🍂

Ideal relationship dynamic

🤦 This whole episode was so disturbing that it genuinely ended my scrolling yesterday. Like, I can't have any more of this; the layers and the level of bullshit is unbearable. 🇺🇸

It’s like a bad dream. You can visualize a beautiful blackletter “I” but every time you draw it it comes out like this

In a way, living in Chinese society, you have had to develop cognitive defense habits long before the proliferation of AI fakes, lies, and hallucinations, even as you witness scenes with your own eyes.

🇺🇸⚫

The “Calvin’s dad explains two types” meme, inspired by a Calvin and Hobbes cartoon. Clockwise from top left: 1) Calvin’s dad walks into frame to find Calvin trying to operate a record player. The dad says: “There are only two industries left in America: gambling, and fraud.” 2) The dad shows where the record goes, and how to turn on the player, while Calvin watches. Dad says “Derivatives? Gambling. AI? Fraud. Video games? Gambling. Social media? Fraud.” Calvin says “yeah”. 3) With one hand open palm up, Calvin’s dad cheerfully explains to Calvin out of frame below him, “The stock market looks like gambling, but it’s actually fraud.” 4) In bed in a dark room, Calvin clutches at his pillow, eyes wide in existential terror. There is no text in the panel.

An annoying one I heard from a colleague of mine: "vesihiisi sihisi hississä". 🌪️

(Koko kokko koottiin jo pääsiäisenä, Seurasaarella. 😌)

get in the harness claude

May Victor Orbán simply be the first in a string of countries engaging in overdue housecleaning by kicking their authoritarian leaders to the curb.

Learn Finnish from weird blog titles: "Valvottavat valvovat valvojaa" 🇫🇮

There is an intellectual reason to pursue one's "crushes", or people one has an interest in: if someone is interesting despite that they did *not* show interest in you, it's a stronger indicator that you see something desirable in them. 🎭

Opposition leader Péter Magyar at a rally.

Orbán's electoral crushing is a far greater achievement than most people outside Hungary realise.

He systemically consolidated power for 16 years, fixed the electoral map, abused govt power for political purposes & censored media.

The hurdles that Hungarians overcame for this moment were immense.

When the hickeys start to fade… I would like to be kissed again. 🌸

I met her at her place. I gave her a tiny bundle of flowers. She gave me a non-fiction book about policy-making. 🌹

A photo of a merch table at a DOC visitor centre in Tongariro, showing natural-coloured tote bags, tea towels, enamel mugs, and caps featuring Pepper Raccoon's Tongariro artwork.

A digital flatlay of a design for Tongariro National Park, featuring a flying Kahu hawk over the lakes in the crossing.

A digital flatlay of a design for Tongariro National Park, featuring a flying Kahu hawk over the lakes in the crossing.

A digital flatlay of a design for Tongariro National Park, featuring a flying Kahu hawk over the lakes in the crossing.

I recently did a collaboration with the Department of Conservation to develop a line of merch for their iconic visitor centres at Tongariro and Aoraki National Parks...

The Aoraki designs aren't public yet, but I can share the Tongariro designs which are now available for purchase on location.

Today in insane realizations: just like how self-rejecting before giving someone else the chance to reject me, self-hatred before giving someone else the chance to hate me is also a form of erosion of, or disrespect towards, that person's agency! 🤯

anyone else finding that mythos is kinda dumb today? took minutes to bring down a developing country's internet when usually it takes like ~30 seconds.

Of course, maybe it's just that I'm too behind on the news, and that if I had seen more, I would not have been awarded a "fell for it again" award. Thread of voices of doubt, on Hacker News: news.ycombinator.com/item?id=4767...

Screenshot of web page content like: Exploit chains on web browsers: PoC: 5d314cca0ecf6b07547c85363c950fb6a3435ffae41af017a6f9e9f3 PoC: be3f7d16d8b428530e323298e061a892ead0f0a02347397f16b468fe

The Anthropic guys really dropped hashes for vulnerabilities that are still to be fixed: red.anthropic.com/2026/mythos-...

Project Glasswing: Securing critical software for the AI era A new initiative to secure the world’s most critical software and give defenders a durable advantage in the coming AI-driven era of cybersecurity.

Claude Mythos not-released blogpost: www.anthropic.com/glasswing

These thoughts of mine are in the context of:

- witnessing the Trivy and LiteLLM supply-chain attacks that spanned much of the industry lately
- using Claude Opus 4.6 myself
- Anthropic not backing down against US Department of War

"Working for Anthropic" feels to me like the opposite of "working for Moloch". This sort of civilization-level coordination is the sort of thing that Chinese propaganda likes to fantasize about so much (e.g. Wandering Earth 《流浪地球》 2019), but is now actually a reality.

In a way, I think the Claude Mythos / Glasswing initiative is even more heroic than Artemis II: it has real capacity to annihilate our entire civilization (via cybersecurity, banking, communications). The scene of "top players standing together to save the world despite differences" inspires awe.

Not getting injured; we're pointing our energy elsewhere. 🔥

I don't think I would've been able to find any energy, any sufficient anger, to get my body and my mind kicked into anger-gear, had I not insisted on rushing to do some however-sloppy muscle-ups at the park. 🖕 Really a recipe for getting injured, so I'm grateful that I didn't.

Enough with the depression symptoms; enough of the dysregulation of social senses. Revenge, revenge -- by absolutely slaughtering the to-do list, is the only way for me to regain lost ground and feel any positivity. ⚫🖕 Anger is worth something.

It was a series of tweets from Jan 2026, about Epstein files and babies being dismembered. ⚫

Looking back, especially considering what's been happening elsewhere in my life around mid-January -- it's no surprise that I've just been completely crushed.

and typically when I've left this kind of "close the tabs" or "file the reports" task undone, it's because I experienced some kind of emotional shock that had been so severe, that I was unable to absorb the shock even long after the moment, and what did I see as the long-hanging tabs today?