I’ve had like. Eleven first drafts of this thing at this point. Free me.

“If she were the one writing this story, this might’ve been where it started.”

From “WHAT’S IN A NAME?”, my sapphic adult romcom WIP about two “rival” authors who accidentally get caught up in a fake dating scheme to save one of their contracts. 🩷💚

Welcome to the butterfly app, friends 🦋💙

Haven’t been on here since my dad died but I see we’re all helplessly trying to Do Something, huh? Felt that.

“How Are You So Okay?” (A Eulogy for My Father) My father, Edwin G. Dayuta, passed away on the afternoon of Easter Sunday, the 31st of March 2024, at 12:50 PM.

My father, Edwin G. Dayuta, passed away on the afternoon of Easter Sunday, the 31st of March 2024, at 12:50 PM.

He was 64 years old. This was the eulogy I gave on the day of his burial.

I Hope My Dad Dies Today My father fell asleep on the afternoon of the 18th of March 2024 and he never woke up. He never will again.

"My father fell asleep on the afternoon of the 18th of March 2024 and he never woke up.

He never will again."

“I hope this happens to you” — And Other Awful Thoughts I Don’t Mean One of the stages of grief is anger. I’ve been grieving my still technically alive father since July. This is what that anger looks like.

'"I hope this happens to you" — And Other Awful Thoughts I Don't Mean'

I wrote down some feelings about grief. Particularly, about anger. If you want to ask me how I'm doing, this is how I am.

Love to casually, academically explain A/B/O dynamics to a coworker in the office 🤠

Yeehaw.

"warning: do not open outside" tag with birds attacking an open box on a box of mealworms

best package warning graphic i've ever seen 🪶

Apple Watch with the screen showing a photo of Jensen Ackles as Dean Winchester wearing a crown. The time reads “3:51” and underneath, “Slut!” (Taylor’s Version) (From the Vault) is playing.

Set up the Apple Watch I’m pretty much taking over from my mother and I giggled so much at the watch face I set up for it🤠

@deankenneth.bsky.social WELCOME 🥳

Now comes the arduous task of having to update all my story + character playlists with the TVs instead of the stolen ones 🫡

Happy 1989 TV day to all who celebrate 🩵🎉

or something! 🤠 ahaha thank you 💜

I wonder how people still make things when they feel such immeasurable grief. The weight of it, the dread of it, the endless leeching of it that consumes you to your marrow.

Galadriel, in the third age: guys you’re really gonna hate me for saying this,

Like… introduce yourself as media that describes you or media that you like? 🫡

(But also, huge yay for DW!)

Lost my 100+ day Duolingo Math streak. Devastated. (My 1600+ day regular Duolingo streak remains pristine.)

This fic is delightful, I’m having a great ol time, 10/10 🫡

Any time I start reading a fic and see that “this was supposed to be a one shot” note at the beginning and then see it’s several chapters long, I just giggle. Have never had an original experience in my life, huh 🤠

Like? This is my house? Let me in??? 😭

It drives me off the walls bananas when I just get logged out of everything for no reason like pls. I was in the middle of something.

Felt this. So tired of being looked upon through a lens of bad faith.

She really said "I know what you are" in the lines between that question, god help me. Felt so seen and perceived.

Her: "...You read a lot of fanfiction, don't you?"

Me: 👀👀👀👀👀👀

I was soooooooooo... [internal screaming]

I was on a video call yesterday and was asked, "What do you like outside of work? What are your hobbies?"

Me: "I read a lot. Watch a lot of TV and films. I like to consume stories however they're presented."

Her: "What are you watching right now?"

Me: "Rewatching all 15 seasons of Supernatural."

Saw someone scrolling through AO3 in this starbies. I see you, friend.

If the new Flanagan show even touches on paternal death, I will be losing every single marble I have left. (I am excited to watch the show.)

Bestie.

Mirror selfie taken in a lift.

Full body mirror selfie taken in a lift.

Okay but, sword earrings 🗡️💚