During the evenings I'm usually in my bed with the TV on with Snoopy close by or in my arms. Snoopy is a companion. His like a person with me in my current situation. His like my brother in arms. We are in a shelter together.

Bit restless tonight but I'm ok. I was praying this evening for myself. Just praying to be less troubled and less stressed and overwhelmed by life. Thankful for my home and blessings but a wish to have a friend and enjoy life more.

Well I did my blood pressure reading this evening and seems normal. I went to the GP link to submit it and then it asked for a 2nd reading for this evening. What a palaver. Anyway did that and said it can text me to remind me. Hopefully I'll be alright then.

I've added a load of notifications to my phone from tomorrow to Saturday for those times. So hopefully I won't forget.

I got a message from my GP in the NHS. I think they know I have a blood pressure monitor at home as I have done readings before. Asked for 2 readings over 4 days now. I wonder if that's related to my issue the GP is bringing up with cardiology.

I thought I would do day prayer from Time to Prayer up to comfort me but seems to not be working today. That's disappointing as they have good short prayers. I only occasionally use it though.

Well I haven't heard from my landlord in regards to the wooden stairs split/collapsing at the rear of my property. Whatapp shows a read receipt. It's played on my mind a bit. I think I will wait until May then send a written letter with photos via Royal mail Signed For.

Blessing from my day calendar.

I've been out for a walk this morning and saw no dogs 🐕😞. Quite a contrast to yesterday when I saw 8 Dogs. Anyway hopefully I feel better today. Yesterday wasn't a great day.

Lovely woof 💚

Did evening prayers this evening listening to the Church of England Daily Prayer app. I think I needed that. It's been a while. I hugged Snoopy throughout. Snoopy sometimes feels like a lifebuoy I hug to stop mentally drowning.

Feeling a bit better now. Think I almost got a bit overwhelmed. Focusing on making dinner now. Pasta and microwave mince beef Bolognese from a tin.

I listened to a sermon while cuddling Snoopy this afternoon. I've been rather anxious with worrying about the future today. To often I say to God I would prefer to be dead and in heaven. Life is too much of a worry for me. God keeps me alive though so obviously wants me around.

My psych nurse phoned me this morning. Almost 3 weeks since I last heard from her when she cancelled my appointment. I am seeing her Wednesday now after I plan to help in Church. She said she might be a bit late getting to the office but I said I would hang around for a while.

Blessings from my day calendar.

Bumper morning for Dogs this morning. I saw 8 Dogs 🐕 out walking which was nice. I guess the nice weather is bringing them out. My flat is getting quite warm already.

Seemed to have a headache occurring so took some paracetamol. I think that has limited it. Looking forward to cuddling Snoopy to sleep but not tired yet. Just been listening to the news and watching dog/cat videos.

Blessing from my day calendar today.

I've already had a shower and got into my pyjamas. I can't find anything to watch. I think I'm too fussy today.

I've been giving Snoopy a cuddle under the duvet since back from Church. He's so comforting. Not sure what to do with myself today.

Church was good. A great service and thoughtful sermon to have Jesus in our hearts.

Near church again and a bit early. Well its good weather today. It's not too cold or hot. Just about right for me.

Breaded chicken and mixed veg for dinner tonight. Trying to be healthyish.

So often I find on X and Facebook while casually browsing is a post about the welfare system. Then the comments are full of hate and no empathy. Then I find it spirals onto my mental health and then I'm worried praying to God that I won't be homeless and destitute.

Blessing from my day calendar today.

I can tell I'm feeling better today (compared to early in the week) as I've cleaned my bathroom and done some laundry.

Some steps that had collapsed were repaired last summer. Though now it it seems like the wood that joins it all diagonally together has split. I have WhatsApp the landlord with a photo. Hopefully it can be replaced.

I was trying to get into the garden this morning by going down the wooden steps to the garden when suddenly the bottom half of the staircase split and began collapsing. It was a bit scary but I was only half way down and managed to get to the top into my flat.

Well my supermarket shopping 🛒 has been delivered this morning. I then went out for a walk and saw 3 Dogs🐕 which was nice. It's warm in my home - it's 24.5c. Not looking forward to summer when it gets too hot in here.

Rejoice from my day calendar.