Like my body is my canvas and any scars are proof of my existence, my suffering and my creativity. Leaving a scarless body behind would make my life meaningless, as there would be no traces left of me in that empty hull.
I do not understand how people dont get it when I tell them that I am not my body, that my body is something working against me, that it is my enemy.
As such, getting people to understand why I self-harm and why I view it as art the same way people view tattoos or piercings is incredibly hard.
yay another binge and im too lazy to purge! really its just my fault im so fat and ugly. i should just die.
bro life is so buns cant even cut cuz i got no bandages
welp time to purge it all again yay yay yippie
my supervisor at the red cross sent me on a walk cuz i binged so much i got stomach pains (mcdonalds)
fml
saaame i gotta get some walking shoes. ive been wearing hiking shoes but i mostly walk on roads so they dont rlly fit.
maybe sneakers would be better
um um um...
we'll play la dispute!
hell yeah! what's playing?
yay wohoo yippie! fun!
one thing i love about edsky is that i haven't come across a "kangel of shedsky" who's 14 yrs old and flexes her 16.7 (haha 67) bmi and tells people to "just lock in"
instead everyone here is just nice and supportive
yoooo crazy look at you go!
saaaaame
gaaahhh day 3 of being bloated fml
i feel like a junkie anytime i cvt or h1t which is technically what i am, but i cant stop doing it.
it just feels way too good after, even if i was doubling over in pain before.
yay yay yippie sh relapse!
i bet breaking a bone would feel so good but i got work the day after tomorrow so i cant
oof
her music is so peak
instead of locking in i locked myself out and threw the key into a sinkhole
who decided my tummy has to hurt while im exercising off my binge like wtf
how tf did i end up l0sing after two (2) b/p sessions yesterday?
like its only 0.1kg but still
oh wow i need to get on that!
A screenshot of the lyrics to Violent Vira's song "Eat"
PEAK
oh wow that sucks! maybe go out for food if you can afford it?
be strong! 🌟
can i stop eating idk what’s wrong w me
also why do i always nick something while purging? the blood just makes it so scary like wtf
how did me getting a little treat yesterday and cooking for me and my dad today turn into a 4 arayes + ice cream binge that i had to purge just now???
MAKE IT MAKE SENSE
love how my "quick snack after work, just some warmed up frozen raspberries" turned into a 400 cal thing with half a tub of skyr and some added chocolate...
still pretty ok for an omad ig but i shouldve just fasted
lowkey idk if its even a thing outside of where i live but a recommendation goes out to maggi fluid seasoning
i can drink that shit straight from the bottle, its so good