I hope they don't find the scale. Mostly my friend, I know my bf wouldn't get angry. But my friend will def call me out

Kinda wanna wake my bf up to get comforted but I feel like unworthy shit

He'll probably notice anyways and do it

hehe I love him

And I haven't had WiFi for MONTHS sigh

Tiktok, twitter, Reddit, Pinterest, fucking CANVA ffs it's all blocked this is so dumb

I hate my country 🙏🙏🙏

I love autism 🥰🥰🥰

Oh god that really was it I unplugged the fan and I feel much better

I ask as if I hadn't cried bc the clock was too loud before (it is not loud)

.....am I really unable to sleep bc the fan is moving instead of being stuck as usual? Am I REALLY that sensitive to these things?

Nah I'll just do some more courses but I'll stick to my career(s)

I love giving t shots it's really fun. I wish I could've gone to try to be a doctor but no way

Nursing....hm

Exactly 🙏🙏🙏

RIGHT ugh

I can say I have seen a shift in my local community which I'm very glad, but it's hard to keep that up when globally the narrative is to hate men for being men instead of hating the patriarchy

How big of a loser am I to be worrying about my weight and looks while my country could collapse

My bf next to me and my friend on the mattress on the floor and I can't stop thinking about tomorrow's (today's) food while also worrying about my country's dictatorship

this is a mental illness awareness account in the sense that u will be very aware how mentally ill i am

the terf have gotten away repackaging so many current narratives it's so painful

I'm an activist and movement leader in my country and I have had to untangle these ideas so often 😭😭😭
It definitely has a high impact on the mental health of transmasc ppl

Hopefully I'm making sense, I can't sleep and it's 4am lol

But I'm SO tired of the demonization of trans men and transmasc ppl, and as you said specially when so often it comes from inside the house

Which of course, is bullshit. We must teach about healthy masculinity and the alternatives to it without perpetuating the patriarchy, it's not impossible yet continuing the "men are inherently bad" narrative certainly makes it more difficult

A form of assimilation really, a wokely way to say "Nono, I'm one of the good ones!"
Oddly enough, if we go to the other side for fem trans men we also get demonized for "promoting" our fetishization. So basically the only acceptable gender expression for us seems to be androgyny

From what I've seen when it's from inside the community they bought into the idea that men = patriarchal masculinity, no other form of healthy masculinity exists, which means masculinity= patriarchy = bad. So, a lot of them fear being bad for being masculine or a man

and especially antitransmasculinity bc ppl still go heart eyes over certain masc men when they are cis but the same ppl the second a transmasc person does the same thing they are "reinforcing the patriarchy" it's so fucking stupid

୨⎯ January 9, 2025

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Drank 2lts of water ✓
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I'm locked at home because my country is falling apart yet again. My boyfriend and a friend are staying over so I'll have to get creative about burning cals the following days sighs

I think it's funny I'm relapsing just as I'm having a stomach bug

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