Like all the cool ally people will say “oh but you sound like a girl to me!!!”

Bc you’re in denial babe. I appreciate the support, but like, let’s bfr for a second

Lmfao getting misgendered on a day like today is just the icing on the cake.

UGH I HATE MY VOICE

Thank you for the kind words though. I’m just in a rut. I’ll get better eventually.

I just feel less than rn bc I see my cis/afab moots just hahaing and loving each other and I kind of feel like I’ve been shitcanned and idk why. Maybe my trans joy was just annoying??

Thank you love. I do think just doing a big unfollow of a bunch of people would help too bc a lot of my moots don’t really feel like my friends anymore /:

Thank you Sahara. I hope so too. I think I just need to take an extended break from pretty much all socials until I get my head on straight. It’s just hard bc I get fomo so bad /:

Like atp I feel like the only things that will help me are surgery and i don’t have the money for that, and watching a gfm drip full over years would just be so demoralizing for me.

It just feels like I need to learn to be okay w feeling ugly.

I miss the first few months of my transition when I felt SO pretty and happy w myself.

Now I’m just stuck in “forever not good enough” world.

I don’t want to give trans at all, I just want to pass completely. I hate feeling like I’m clocky no matter how hard I try.

I hate how dumb I feel when it comes to literally anything.

Main is gone again for now.

I’m just so tired…

The things I would do for ffs…

Happy tdov btw kind of ironic

My heart hurts. My soul hurts. Idk how to deal with feeling like this.

Main is gone for now. Idk when it’s gonna come back.

And it’s gonna suck even more when I get in shape and suddenly people will want to build me up once I already built MYSELF up by my fucking self.

It’s gonna be so hard to not just start blocking people I’ve been moots w for two years bc it’s just so frustrating

Nobody realizes how hard that particular issue is for me bc I try my best I keep it covered up. But seeing all the pretty cis women get showered in likes and compliments from our moots and I get nothing just makes me feel SO fucking ugly and unwanted.

This circle doesn’t have room for a tgirl.

All this page is atp is me screaming ab how I’m not pretty enough.

oh okay

Fighting back tears in the break room feels so good. I love this. I love feeling like a caged animal.

Idk if I’m gonna come out of this mood today tbh.

I’m so sick of feeling inadequate

Feeling hopeless again. Like I realize that I’ve made a lot of progress, but like… it’s not really toward what I *wish* I could look like

IT'S OK TO... cry have feelings rest ask for help make mistakes <33

It really sucks when your partner makes a cute little request for matching outfits and it just makes you icky w your body.

Like, I just want feminine clothing to fucking look right on me. Not a big ask, but at the same time it is /:

One day I’ll be *actually* pretty and it’s gonna make the attention I get then feel awful. I can’t win no matter what.

People in trans friendly spaces treating trans women differently than everyone else makes me want to throw up.

I’m so tired of trying so hard just to still be the ugly friend everyone ignores.

Am I annoying? Stupid? Maybe it’s just bc I’m trans. Idk. I just miss feeling like part of the fun.

Can’t wait to be able to afford a new, prettier face.

Its not bb. You are beautiful from your skin all the way down to your soul.

I just want to drink until I cant feel it anymore. Until I cant feel *anything* anymore.

i sleep. i dream. i make up things that i would never say. i say them very quietly.