Speeding ticket or Hit & Run (American Trucking Simulator)

I'm fine with being thought of as "evil" & a bad person for being glad he's dead. They take just as much joy in killing ppl like me every moment of every day.
But nobody wants to acknowledge or accept that.

Lowkey miss when I was 15-17 and just tanked through week long fasts and was burning like 3k cals every other day on a 500cal allowance. But also. I was dealing with The Horrors at that time.

So maybe it is good I'm not doing that!

A cheer and hurrah for not being in highschool anymore! 🤗

I'll be with you in spirit. 🙏 Hope your visit goes smoothly tho, or that someone comes in with you!

Like,,, yeah I'm duper mentally disordered and I'm constantly in ed spaces and interacting with ed moots, but like... my ass is not showing up to service (fasting, restricting, etc.) It's kinda funny but harrowing because I haven't lost a single pound. Haven't gained either but yeah. 😔

Honest to god I keep failing and not exactly binging, but def overeating. I'm not as actively here as I am on tmblr, but everytime I talk to moots or repost something I feel a bit like a fraud? Lol, best I can explain it is I feel like, the ed version of a non-practicing catholic or something.

AND IT'S NOT EVEN HARD TO STILL BUY VAPES. BROTHER IN CHRIST THE MIDDLE SCHOOLERS ARE STILL HUFFING THAT UNICORN PISS FLAVOURED SUGAR STICKS.

LET ME BUY MY FUCKIIINNNGGG NEWPORTS.

In other news, ran out of my menthols, and even though I'm broke as shit right now, I couldn't get another pack anyways. Stupid fucking laws took out menthols when they banned flavored vapes. Like what middle schoolers are out here smoking Newports. Be so honest with yourself right now.

Smoothie shop rejected my application. Sad. Oh well, my friend Laney gave me some good spots to send in job apps yesterday, so hopefully I'll get a call back before Summer ends.

Ty! I honestly like making the lil calenders the most, it's fun coming up with themed stuff.

Tired but trying something new. Maybe a weekly counter would be more effective than a monthly one. Idk. Still fat asf tbh.

Girlypops im so sweaty and nasty rn. But on the good news I did a cologne sample earlier and it melts into my sweat scent really well. If that makes sense. Might have to actually buy a sample of it off ebay. The whole bottles like 200 bucks tho.

Omad. 425 total.

Alive. Life's shit again. Failing all my classes. Constipated.

Same here lol

I drank 3 of these in a row and then shit my pants once

Anyways breakfast. 100 cals

Nevermind tried to take a selfie and I looked like a beached whale. I'm gonna lose it.

I'm at a weird spot that I suspect may be due to T. It redistributed the fat a bit/visibly gained more muscles and also I just feel a bit comfortable in my body, so like I haven't been restricting in a minute, but I still feel disordered if that makes sense? I have no idea if I'm in recovery or not?

It's kinda funny how I actually look pretty similar to how I used to, if there was a 3rd bit for my teens then you'd really get a big change with hair, colors, style and whatnot.

people were like, weird and parasocial about it and like, trying to 'ana-thruth' real people.

But like it makes sense that using a content creator's weight loss to trigger yourself is a bit odd, I guess I have biases lol.

Late reply, but yeah that's totally fair. I personally (genuinely) don't really understand the difference between grabbing pics of some random person online for thinspo versus a content creator, bc like idk I don't think anyone would like to find that out, but idk. I figured the issue was that some-

No I think I'm right, he's def slimmed down, not to be weird about it tho.

Also I don't want to be hashtag weird about this but he's kinda low-key thinspo in that first pic, did he lose weight recently?

Everyone's hating his 80's realness, SORRY WAIT HOLD ON AWOOGA HELP WHY IS THIS SO ATTRACTIVE

Hey guys am I cooked or... 🥴

Drink every time someone's told you "you're so mature for your age" amiright