A nightmare and the smoke alarms sounding off to start the day.

Ugh... Fun :/

That's good to hear.

*hugs*

I love Indian spiced snack foods, like mixes that contain peas, nuts, rice crackers, noodles and sultanas ❤️

Shit. Stay safe. Hopefully you have, or can get, sandbags if you need them.

"How... The hell... Does he eat these... All the time? These are so hot... Oh crap... I'm feeling light headed... Am I dying?... I am Saiyan royalty... I can handle... A little heat. I'll show him... What a TRUE warrior... Looks like."

It's a shame my father didn't realise that before giving up on me. I'm a different person now than I was as a scared nineteen year old. I know a lot more about my disabilities now and how they affect me. Stuff he apparently knew at the time but never told me.

Thanks for this ❤️

It is very hard for me to find that motivation. Part of me feels like it's easier to just stay away and let him come to me (which may never happen), and another wants an apology for being mistreated and answers to questions that have been eating away at me for thirteen plus years.

I want to follow that path. But am I ready to accept that certain emotional wounds may be ripped open once again? I don't know.

I deserve an explanation, at the very least. I have lots of questions.

I stopped using it too. You're fine.

I'd have to get him to contact me first, and that itself is an unknown. Then we'd have to re-establish the relationship. I'm not letting him back in straight away. Trusting him has already led to trauma. I've survived without him and will continue to if I have to.

I'm living a long way away from them, so one party would have to travel to the other. I also want him to have the genuine desire to reconnect, not because this person gives him permission to.

I agree with your second point, and that's why it stings as much as it does.

I don't know if I can, as I strongly suspect that someone else may have poisoned him, because they're very controlling and I made it clear that it I wasn't going to be controlled by them.

There are other people I could talk to, but I fear that said person may twist my intentions against me.

4/4

I've struggled with feeling worthless for well over a decade. I tried my best for him and I wasn't good enough.

It's one of the reasons that I loathe being disabled. If it weren't for my hurdles, maybe I WOULD be good enough for him.

I'm not okay right now. I just wanna hide and cry.

3/4

I tried calling him years ago and was met with radio silence. It still stings. I have resentment towards him because I was tossed away whilst my brother still gets to have a relationship with him.

2/4

I have no idea if I'll ever see or speak to him again. He's getting on and I have burning questions that haven't been answered.

Was I too difficult for him because of my disabilities?

Was he ever really proud of me?

Why did he give up on me?

1/4

Great, heavy thoughts have hit me like a freight train and now I feel like shit.

I've just realised that in a few short years, I will have spent more of my life being estranged from my father than I have being his underaged son.

a man in a suit is making a funny face and saying oh no ! ALT: a man in a suit is making a funny face and saying oh no !

It appears that you've attracted the attention of The Village Idiot Guild :P

I'd laugh AND cry :P

I had similar experiences in Singapore last year. I was eating meals that would've cost me north of $20 back home and paying less than half of that.

Robodebt II: Electric Boogaloo anyone?

Shit like this is why I'm hesitant to apply for the NDIS. Getting on the DSP was dehumanizing enough.

This MASHES my buttons, good Lord 👉👈

I will do this to people if, and ONLY if, they make fun of my disabilities first.

I fling that shit right back at those who send it. Being a fuckwit is a multiplayer game, and I'm a prestige player.

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hey so messaging everyone you know with someone’s address and telling them to “do with it what they will” is actually disgusting, evil, and illegal.

and using an emotional lapse in judgement isn’t an excuse. you’re actually deplorable. genuinely get help. genuinely not facetiously. get help.

*scrawls in my Handy Dandy Notebook for future reference*

Whenever I see "Veggie Tales", all I can think of is the "Drawn Together" parody from the episode where Wooldoor cures people of their afflictions 😂

Trying to drown out heavy thoughts with loud electronica at midnight.

Should I go to bed? Probably.

Do I want to? Not really.

*big kitten hugs*

That's not true. Mistakes made in the past don't make you deserving of shit like that. You're trying your best to be a better person, and that's what matters ❤️

BMW's don't have those :P

It's Forza Motorsport 2023.

Had a brown trousers moment at Spa-Francorchamps last night. Hit a tyre and spun off, without hitting anything, somehow.

Car is the BMW V12 LMR.

Thankies ❤️