Fanart: Rei Ayanami
- pencil + digital edit

An artwork in black & white that focused on expressing emotions while balancing impulse, intensity, roughness, and line control. It leans more toward abstraction than toward figurative language.

Distortion
- Waiting for the night to pass, and bleeding out all the noise inside.

random...

or maybe I didn't have to specify anything n just go with the flow...again, as a journey is supposed to be.

“I want to give a small heads up that my next few artworks may lean into heavier or more emotional themes. The current political situation in my country has been weighing on me. I want my work to be genuine, even if that honesty comes with a darker tone for a while.”

The lingering thoughts never truly go away.

The Cut
A bit of intensity, in hopes of calming the soul. ✌️

oh i had this realization once

Merry X'mas
May you feel the warmth in this cold winter.
Or maybe, give yourself the warmth you needed.

(My old pixel art from around 4 years ago that became my main way to gave Merry Xmas vibe)

Is the sky still blue to you, or started to feel gray?
Is the night calming you and the moonshine guiding you, or is the loneliness of the night starting to feel too much?
Is the sun of the new day still greeting you gently or not anymore?
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I didn't have enough savings for a new pc to replace my old laptop n now that I see some light, the RAM went 3times higher... sigh...

Just realized the Vibrant one is uploaded via original pixel size, so it's very blurry oof.

Scattered Tools - Scattered Minds
Hey guys. Hello. สวัสดี. Meow meow
I feel so lonely. Is it a good idea to type like this? idk.
Anyway~ have a good day!

A part of me that already gave up before is still broken but it really took me a few years from there to accept the fact that I couldn't keep looking at the past, n wanted to stop existing in the present. A few years later. I feel more peaceful, even some parts feel kinda numb, but idk, it's ok.

It's been 4yrs since I first tried pixel art n I feel so nostalgic looking at these in my [Old work_pixel art] folder. Also, one of my darkest phases (mental health). I used to believe that it was the start of my Afterlife, marking the start of the day of slowly trying to be alive again.

so cute n clean~~

Although I think I'm completely numb, having an old good friend text HBD makes me smile. It's nice to know.

[ hbd 🍰🕯️]

It's so beautiful n balanced~ really love your choice of colors too.

Trying to balance between expressing the emotions in the moment and carefully drawing without having much plan.
I'm glad it turned out well. ✏️🖋️

I know full well that there is love in what I do, or else I would not be able to stay with it this long. But after many years of rarely getting a compliment, I do feel lonely. I know I just need to keep going n find my people, but being ignored by my friends n family really made me feel this way.

For most people, it might not be that hard to get encouragement here n there in daily life.

I know it's much healthier to enjoy what you do on your own n not care about compliments, opinions, and encouragements, but many times I just feel like I'm walking alone n been alone for a long time...

Also featuring my Vending Machine n a smol one too.

I like vending machines n appreciate the variety of drinks or products they offer. And most of the drinks here are based on the ones I like the most, condensed into my ink drawing.
They're kinda cute~

woahhhh they look so cool~~

Now I remember. I’ve been biased—always magnifying the good times of my younger self and comparing them to the bad times of my older self. I kept believing my student years were my best, when really, I just forgot most of the bad days back then.

Traditional vases, both in history and in the present, were made for many purposes. But the ones that inspire me most are those where you can feel the connection between the creator and their craft. Each vase tells a different story, yet they all carry something deeply human.

Vases and Ink

I draw these vases directly with ink—no pencil, no planning—embracing mistakes and reminding myself it’s okay if something doesn’t feel good enough.
It is part of how I deal with pressure and expectations. I can’t erase or fix it—only adjust what’s already there.

can't believe it's almost a year since I drew this...