every day is a roulette between my regular numbness, even worse numbness, random ache/pain, near complete loss of coordination in that hand, and ITCHY

today i woke up and my brain injury chose VIOLENCE my stroke-affected hand is so itchyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

yesterday we went to alton towers! it was also easter... something i forgot about until i saw the towers street frogs dressed up 😭

Two people in fursuiters pose for a photo selfie. One wears a lion-unicorn head, the other a fox head. The scene is set in a neon colorful room.

A group of people in colorful fursuits gather in a vibrant bowling alley with neon lights and graffiti walls, creating a cheerful, lively atmosphere

OC stickers are placed over people's faces sitting at a dimly lit restaurant table with menus. The atmosphere is lively and warm, with visible glasses and tables around.

Had an extremely busy weekend! 😅

Attended @thamesfurs.bsky.social meet to do a game of bowling with dining at a Japanese restaurant afterwards and finished at Mr. Foggs with a few close friends 🎳✨

Now I'm pooped and need to recover for my trip up north soon 🦊

we managed to book spaces .... after THREE HOURS of trying to get some 😭

we wanna go during easter weekend bc my gf's got the time off and im so worried that we're gonna have to leave it bc by the time im able to load in, they'll all be gone 💀 and i can't handle parks without rap in any case

currently have been stuck on the confirm reservation button loading for TEN!!!!! MINUTES so im having to sack it and try again. but THIS time, it's just coming up with an error every time i try and load dates 😐

why is the merlin RAP app so painful to use omg ive tried booking like 3 times now and every time it takes 5 minutes to respond to me pressing the park i want to book for and then the buttons load for so long that i have to keep exiting the app and trying again

it makes me feel so pathetic

one food made me sick (food poisoning i think) 6 months ago after the first time i tried it and the thought of being around it makes my anxiety spike and makes me nauseous. the worst part about arfid is when it's proven RIGHT because it makes it so much worse and it makes me 10000% more avoidant

ppl who shit on "picky eaters" piss me off bc arfid has low key ruined my life lmao

if i didn't rely on social media i would be a lot more strict with my screenzen settings... but it takes at least 30 minutes per video app to edit and upload videos to tiktok and instagram sometimes so i cant be too strict with it

downloading screenzen because ive developed an addiction to instagram reels and it's making my life noticeably and considerably worse 😭😭😭

strawberry lemon corrected
i wanna lemon lime from a new perspective

i was just minding my own god damn business 😭

i can tell that spring is here because I've sneezed about 50 times already and ive only been awake for an hour lmao

not gonna go into it bc it's pretty much been resolved, but yeah. not a very good day. at least i know ppl have got my back. fucking hell

i rarely get angry but God im angry. today's been so, so ass. all i wanted to do was finish my suit and hang out with my wife for their birthday but instead i got dragged headfirst into some petty, pointless fucking drama against my will that could have been entirely avoidable

I can't sleep bc ive had a very shit day LMFAO

today was supposed to be chill 😭😭

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im so angry about it man, i'm not in the games industry but i did 2 years of game dev in college and i can absolutely appreciate all the artistry behind these games

seeing RE9 being used as an example fucks me off more because that game was absolutely BEAUTIFUL

and it's not like modding, where there are ALSO human artists behind the mods (though i do sneer at people who make mods for the purpose of making people sexier and easier to objectify). AI is just a computer painting over real people's work

"oh it uses AI to make photorealistic lighting!!" photorealistic lighting doesn't change your facial structure and give you makeup, you fucks

and you know damn well it's only the women being changed as greatly as this. you know damn well the men don't get this much of an alteration.

like they made grace look like she's got a full face of makeup and buccal fat removal. brother, that's an normal ass woman and FBI desk jockey that's been thrown into nightmares beyond imagination, WHY would she look like a runway model???

nahh fuck the whole DLSS 5 thing. artists designed a game and its characters to look a certain way and i would much rather experience it that way, why on earth would you choose to use something that Yassifies every character and essentially paints over the original artists' work???

i can bake but I can't cook for shit 😭😭😭

cooked a sunday roast today. and then burnt water. so. i dont know if im gonna be cooking sunday roast again for a while 💀

I have so much work shit to sort all on my own and i take so much time off this month... the 6 weeks of april-may doesn't feel like enough i dont think it ever will

like what if we get lost, what if i take us to the wrong place, what if i end up melting down or panicking bc i don't know the stations. ive never been to these stations before and not knowing what to expect FREAKS ME THE FUCK OUT and it falls on me for getting us there in time

ive just painted it with a colour that sort of matches, and im just hoping that the lack of gel doesn't make me more likely to bite it again :(

i suppose I'm stressing a lot about work and ive gotta travel into London on friday and it's been really worrying me