devotional music but about weed

bad day.

like i love my online Queer friends so much and i have a great circle irl but man it does really suck sometimes being the only one i know well irl who is capital q Queer - especially when im with my lgbtq+ irls who dont engage with the culture

the jealousy i feel when i see a group of irl friends who are all culturally Queer could probably fuel a generator with how much it burns

and that the whole time i was shirtless completely visible to anyone looking in the window 😭 lard and gynecomastia titties bouncing around all over the place

rawdogging adhd is funny sometimes cause I've spent all day so far trying to learn the gnarly choreography (having never danced before) and didn't realise until i genuinely felt like i was gonna pass out that 3 hours had passed, im running on an hours sleep, and haven't eaten since yesterday morning

its rly funny to me being 24 now and crushing on a guy im talking to for the first time in years - feels like a rhythm paradise final remix of trying to put to use all the skills i developed to manage a crush sanely and not let it make me lose my mind the way EVERY crush i had as a teen did

weed destroys my ego and alcohol feeds it

this might just be the alcohol talking, but i think I've softened my position on sobreity

waxing lyrical drunk on valentines to the bluesky drafts

2020 era playlists hit so different now 💀

i miss doing poppers so bad but also i think my heart would explode if i used them ever again now that im on beta blockers lmfaoo

violently ill on new years eve 🙂 2025 wouldn't let things end between us gracefully lmaooo

mfw i bought a bunch of alcohol for a belated family Christmas dinner only to find out i was the only one drinking

crazy how when i listen to 100% pure love my brain just visualises a frame by frame perfect recreation of the denali/kahmora lip sync i genuinely have probably watched it over 200 times

literally played ribs for about 40 seconds and immediately had to turn it off before the vocals even started cause i started tearing up LMFAO

also helps that i've taken a PHAT t break just by virtue of being in college/employed again and my one rule for myself going into both of those that i wouldn't smoke outside of special occasions like christmas/new years

my yearly routine of spending christmas time with 🍁🍁🍁 is gonna hit so different this year after seeing lorde in concert i genuinely think i'm more excited to listen to virgin stoned again than i am christmas itself lol

emotionally in a "melodrama on repeat kinda night" so that should explain where i'm at rn
#lorde

yeah idk

overwhelming urge to just get the lyrics to like every lorde song tattood all over my entire body but that seems a bit impractical so maybe i'll just settle for getting the ultraviolet tour confetti design tattood instead

🌸 Okami style for @anomonom.bsky.social !

#art #commission #ffxiv

AND WHEN ITSSS ALLL OVERRR AGAINNNN, SAY I'M NOT AFFECTEDDDD 🗣️🗣️🗣️🔊🔊🔊

if there was ever a tell that i'm fully burnt out after an exhausting day, it's me busting out the studio headphones to listen to lorde instead of just slapping the airpods in lmao

i would literally give anything to go back in time and not have to experience shingles there genuinely isn't words to explain how painful it is, the closest way i try explain it to people is like the worst tooth ache nerve pain you can imagine but all on a huge surface area on your body, get dat vax

how do i convince my adhd that the assignment i need to do tonight is the most dopamine inducing thing of all time

i'll just get through today, and worry about the day after tomorrow

free time reduced to literally nothing, juggling college, work, and health feels impossible, no idea how i'm supposed to feel emotionally being single again for the first time in years

but at least my goatee is kinda cute now so maybe mid twenties isn't all so bad

man, i love christmas but it truly is like the ultimate period my brain decides to min-max feeling unbelievably lonely lol

2 drinks in me and all i want to do is blast orville peck in my ear drums

my 19 year old self would be so baffled by my 24 year old selfs relationship with alcohol (and also music and gay culture for that matter lol)