im falling apart in every single way and im terrified

im doing really bad atm ..

aaah ty sm !

will probably be deleted but we will see !

…. i don’t know what to do !

it has not been the best ! but im ok — how are you? ☁️

hello …

really really don’t want to be here

im so fat and i hate myself for it. I hate myself

apparently it’s a 1lbs , im not entirely sure ! but i used a random weight loss calc thing online ! but aaah idk , I’ll probably test it for a while + see <3

does this look like it makes sense? will it help me to loose weight ? like or am I just overthinking this entire thing. i am determined to loose as much weight as i can … so im trying to figure it out properly

thankyou sm !

okay !! thank you — i just freak out occasionally bc there’s no way i can walk enough to burn 1300 cals each day 😂

asking potentially a dumb question abt cal deficits ! if i eat 1300, do I have to actively burn it to loose the weight ? or does it count as cals burnt during the day naturally??? so say if i burn 2000+ cals without exercising am i okay??? #caterpillarsky

i hate eds

feel like nothings real n it’s 3am n aaah

YES. mum keeps saying i look tiny and im like HUH no. then next second says im too fat so 🙂‍↔️

but like im fat , people say im small but im fat????

just wanna be small + tiny. don’t wanna be ‘average’ anymore.

ate under 1300 today so yay ! burnt nearly 1000 too — so we are locking back in !

dinner — any idea of cal estimate ?? curry & rice !! ❤️✉️🪴

meant to weigh this morning … but on my period so i can’t + idk how much i weigh + it’s really stressing me out

walked 7048 steps + burnt 399 cals so yay !

leftovers for lunch !! 114g rice , 128g noodles ( thinks it’s about 450 cals ) anyone know if that’s abt accurate???

I hope dnd went well !! I have been looking / thinking about a joining a group — but I’m just so so anxious AAH.

it’s so so bad. gen the worst.

can’t remember the lbs conversion but I chose 44/45kg for the same reason 😭😭😭

wish i could ☆v all the way to d3/at/h

omggg i have had many version but always give up 😭😂 but im determined to get a actual self care thing set up !