An illustration of my character Aka, leaning over the edge of her bed to observe the mess around her room. the light of a clear blue sky is behind her, though she is covered in lilac shadows, a yellow-lit cigarette the only thing illuminating her face. All the clutter is so cute and colorful in appearance, but Aka's face suggests something more dire in expression. description: trying to illustrate the overwhelm of bedrotting with my character aka - i think she might be a little guilty of it herself... sleeping in till the afternoon, staying in bed all day, not remembering when you last showered, letting cans and bottles, bags and trinkets clutter the space to reflect the mind - only having the tiniest comb for hair twisted and tangled just about anywhere. the only thing one can stick to doing is cheap seratonin kicks and vices... it's a sorry state i feel myself getting into way too often lately and its harder to get out of than it looks, which makes it feel that much more humiliating to be in. i tried to make this illustration sort of contradict its message in its visuals on purpose, cos i just like to trick the brain upon viewing.... like how bedrotting and depression in general is like a play of facade. 'im fine its fine' but its not fine. if you look closely at her face, youll know its not fine, but most wont look long enough to realize. the lock around her neck symbolizing feeling trapped.... cigarette in her mouth to... weirdly contrast the cutesy elements everywhere and show how one sticks to vices when theyre in survival mode. bad times...
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