AND I ALREADY MISS EVERYONE ;__;
im hoping its just bc im really tired that i feel this wound up and when i properly switch sleep schedules im less like.... worried feeling ahhhhhhhhhh
ive been so chill and normal about starting a job and now less than an hour out from my shoft i feel like sick with anxiety ;__;
its like it didnt all feel real until now and im soooo nervous aaugjdhskchwlc
my gums and teeth r even tingling ahhhgxjh IM SO SCARED
EVERYONE WAKE UP
i need to put them in situations to actually like.. get more of a feel of when they would be serious and quiet mode vs evil biting gremlin that runs on all fours in the middle of a match
i have had an idea in my head for a couple of days now of annemonie growing up with a nurse shark nanny as their primary care taker...
itd be so cute if she was a tiny old lady with these little round glasses... and if annemonie was suprisingly respectful to her
shes so annemonie i adore her shes so stupid and evil and bites
28 HOURS ON ONE CANVAS OVER A WEEK GWAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH i have never worked on one thing this long in my entire LIFE
even that weepy annemonie i was super proud of was like 10 hours or something over like 4 days
IM SO EXCITED TO POST IT YAAAY
AND BY NORMAL I MEAN PPL WHO ARENT LIKE INSANE BRAINROTTED CONSERVATIVES
I NEED TO START DRAWING HOPEFUL AND HAPPY ANNEMONIE AGAIN THE DEPRESSION ARC CAN FINALLY COME TO AN END!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i need to draw...... i need to finish my commission........ i need to draw my yellow stain..... auauuhghjggfasf
im so happy im on prozac and ive met so many nice and cool and normal ppl who accept me even tho im a weirdo and annoying and slow and evil :'3 and i have the best husband in the whole entire world
i would post a wip but its a commission and idk.... that feels like its against the rules... (i make the rules(its my art(no one will even see it most likely)))
10 hours of drawing yesterday 3 hours of drawing today.....
the prozac is fixing me.... :'D
idr if i ever posted this prehistoric doodle... :<
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i think also my issue is i assume everyone in the entire world hates me unless they explicitly say they like me
he only asked me like 2 questions and im so nervous i answered them badly....... i actually like dont know how to speak in like a coherent sentence like. verbally even when im medicated LMFAO
YAY I JUST GOT OUT OF MY INTERVIEW I WAS SO NERVOUS
i am really bad at anything public speaking adjacent and i feel like i rambled too much but.... i am hopeful.......
THANK U... i will believe in the u that believes in me fjakcjs >:3
YAY PROMISE??? :D
THANK U... i really hope it does too eheheh <:3
THANK U I NEED IT IM GONNA BE SO RICH
when i get the job and back on ffxiv we will be having a pizza party at our house.... :3
its not till saturday but im so excited/nervous its making me feel ill
im so bad at interviews ahhhxhskchsk jsms and i want it so bad.....
it starts at 15 too omg...... my last job was like 13.25 or smthm omg.......... omg.... and its not customer facing omg.....
YAY I MIGHT HAVE AN INTERVIEW FOR A PART TIME OVERNIGHT JOB IM SO EXCITED BUT IM ALSO SO NERVOYS
my pompom....... my awful sour bitter lemon pudding.....
bwehhh :p
UNCHARTED TERRITORY
MY UNREALISTIC GOAL... is to reach 2500 this season hehehe.... then Maybe ill think abt finally switching to takoroka next season mwueheheheh
