need to have lesbian sex soon or i will literally disappear

sighhhhh it’s 2am bro ill b up all night again

today for thanksgiving i spent like 4 hours exploring the stony run forest & fell asleep in a pile of dead leaves for another 3 so now i got wash the leafs crumbs out of my curls FAWK

am i cursed to feel / be misunderstood at every turn till the end of time ?

ok so it was just migraine aura

it’s great but also isolating

i am extremely beautiful & therefore untouchable

i’m often envious of others & their ability to be social

from ages 4 to 11 i used to pray every night before bed to pass away in my sleep. like literally beg god to take me.

i gotta do this for 10 more days bro ohmygod

oil of oregano cleared me tf out from the roota to the toota & i wept the entire time it was hell

i’m on the precipice of something so brilliant& sparkly

like watching magical girl shows like cardcaptor sakura + sailor Moon that tackled gender in subversive ways are really half the reason i’m not in a casket tbh, cuz looking back my environment was sooo isolating. I rlly was 1of 1.

it’s rlly crazy bc i went thru so much grief & anguish over really hating the whole girl thing but also rlly hating boys & gendered performance as a whole then i learned abt nonbinary characters thru Bmo from adventure time + CLAMP anime & suddenly i didn’t feel so alone anymore.

when i was younger i used to wish i could live as a boy so so so soooo bad. it was the absolute worst from ages 5-11. i prayed starting from age 9 for my puberty to be delayed so i could stay flat

my body doesn’t allow me a cheat day it’s not fair

that tummy ache fart that heals you >

my little brother is so grown now my chest hurts :( he was my sensitive little baby now he’s in a frat like awww😣

cyber security. pleaser. pathetic. right right. i’ll take 5.

hahaha FUCK

if i pop out with someone’s son on a leash, don’t say nothing just know he’s paying my bills.

i see you. i know what you’re planning. you will not succeed. cease now or face peril.

my fucking allergies are ruining my life

i hate white people

do not underestimate my ability to fag out

no NOT underestimate my ability to get REAL slutty the second beautiful women are around.

i’m going through something but it’s nothing $15k & a 6fig paypig couldn’t fix.

i’m experiencing symptoms… of the disorders….

like “omg this french toast is fucking delicious!! i should throw myself on the MARC tracks right now!!!”

sometimes I’ll have a really delightful experience and right at the peak i’ll start daydreaming about offing myself despite having a good time .