lesbian week

It certainly feels more like the movies that I'll be flying out to the US in a touch over 24 hours, haven't slept since Friday night, and am about to have "assisted" sex again. I'm purging all of the chaos out of my system so none of it bites me in the ass at the airport, or during the contest.

Look, sometimes, you didn't expect to start in the first place, and you certainly didn't expect to not have stopped by now, but you keep going because it becomes narratively interesting

I'm currently of the "disposition" where I'm messaging a guy on Grindr to compliment his bulge pic profile photo because I'm a really big fan of the creativity of the composition and he should be proud

I'm glad ur weird hairy boy is keeping you company :) 🖤🖤🖤

Oh, it's 9am? Fucking, whoops

Hello

this is incredible!!!

🥺🥺🥺🖤🖤🖤

I love drawing chainmail>:) 🩶🖤🩶🖤🩶

mind's racing at a million miles a second rn

I'm fucking cooked, she's perfect

For her birthday, @lettuces.bsky.social got me to tattoo a small version of the labrys on her chest on her shoulder. Today, she tattooed her sigil on me on the opposite shoulder. 🥹🖤

we are the most powerful couple🩶🖤🩶
we will defeat any other couple any time>:) 🩶🖤🩶🖤🩶

Butch with a dirty blonde mullet holding a Femme with a black chelsea cut by the chain. The Femme has blood running down her face from needleplay wounds. The Butch has traces of that blood around her mouth, staring directly into the camera.

Butch with a dirty blonde mullet and traces of blood on her face being kissed on the cheek by her Femme, bound to a wooden support beam and covered in drippings of her own blood.

A Butch/Femme couple, both wearing white tank tops and underwear covered in each other's blood. Their faces are both also covered in their own respective blood. Posing in front of a mirror.

Bloodied-up Power Couple 🖤💜♥️ Love you, @lettuces.bsky.social

It's so over for me boys, I'm The Most In Love Of All Time™

feeling so weary and crashy after Salute and Fringe but my dear beloved butch is giving me some restorative medicinal bloodletting:)<3 🩶🖤🩶🖤🩶

fuck leeches, dykes do it better 🖤🩶🖤🩶

The celebration is going well

Butch trans woman, long dirty blonde mullet, gold hoop earrings and facial piercings, black leather trench coat, black metal band t-shirt

Butch trans woman, dirty blonde mullet, gold hoop earrings and facial piercings, with beautiful transfem Femme Creature in the background doing a silly pose and pulling a fun face

Celebrating finishing all of my Bootblack contest homework deadlines with my beloved Femme Creature this evening; stopping back by hers to get her tattoo equipment 🖤 @lettuces.bsky.social

I am Knighttuce>:) 🩶🖤🩶

(also a huge shout out to my wonderful and incredible @lettuces.bsky.social for being the best Femme Creature a Butch could ask for and really being there for me, and affording me the trust to be there for her, through these difficult times)

(it's been a very long time since i've gotten this kind of personal on socials; i usually try to avoid it, but felt a bit cathartic this time. don't expect too much of this!)

i have a good feeling about this summer. the weather's improving, i'll have more time to rest, hopefully i'll be able to see some of my dearest more than i have been. it's been really hard; hoping it'll ease up for a bit soon, and i think it will. just gotta take care of myself and hang in there.

and gang, i won't lie, i gave myself WAY too much work to do in the first half of this year. i'm so excited to compete for IMsBB in the US in a couple weeks, but going for that AND competing for BBE (and winning!) was piling it on a bit, and i've been really quite exhausted for a while now.

been seeing less of my loved ones as usual for a few weeks now, especially after getting back from Darklands. call it bad timing, schedules are fucked and it feels like everyone's been going through it this time of year. going a bit easy on the substances for a second has been all the harder for it.

i'm at least conscious of it, regardless of how ineffective that can be in the dysmorphia going away. but working out again helps. and i'm not doing it to lose weight; none of the exercising i've done this year has been about that. it's to make myself feel better in how i *feel* in my body. it helps

it's juuuuust enough added weight that none of my jeans fit as good as they used to, and let me tell you, as someone who's been on the heavier side for much of my life and suffers from all the body dysmorphia that comes with it, minor differences like that can throw your whole self-image off

i'm dealing with a combo of mild weight gain from pregabalin use, anxiety and low self-esteem from a combination of that AND pregabalin withdrawal (i've tapered off of it over the last few weeks), and throw in some autistic burnout and not-seeing-friends-as-much-ness, it's been taking its toll

nothing to crazy right now, just a full stretch routine, some core exercises and some arm stuff (eternal thanks to @ellaorlando.bsky.social for being as good a gym buddy as she's been that i know what i'm doing solo now) but it's doing numbers for me

i'm working out today for the first time in a couple of weeks, and i think it's helping