And I'll scream out the window
'I can't even look at you!'
I don't need you but I do, I do, I do
I say, 'There's nothing you can say to make this right again
I mean it, I mean it.'
What I mean is...

So tell me everything is not about me
But what if it is?
Then say they didn't do it to hurt me
But what if they did?

Breaking down and coming undone
It's a roller coaster kind of rush
And I never knew I could feel that much
And that's the way I loved you

I dreamed about it in the dark
The night I felt like I might die
No mid-sized city hopes and small-town fears
I'm there most of the year 'cause I hate it here
I hate it here

I lived like an island, punished you with silence
Went off like sirens, just crying
Why'd I have to break what I love so much?
It's on your face, don't walk away, I need to say

Lost your balance on a tightrope
It's never too late to get it back

So they follow me down the hall
And there in the bathroom
I try not to fall apart
And the sinking feeling starts
As I say hopelessly
'He said he'd be here'

He respects my space
And never makes me wait
And he calls exactly when he says he will
He's close to my mother
Talks business with my father
He's charming and endearing
And I'm comfortable

Combat
I'm ready for combat
I say I don't want that
But what if I do?

'Cause cruelty
Wins in the movies
I've got a hundred thrown-out speeches
I almost said to you

I don't like your little games
Don't like your tilted stage
The role you made me play
Of the fool, no, I don't like you

I'll tell you something right now
I'd rather burn my whole life down
Than listen to one more second
Of all this bitching and moaning
I'll tell you something about my good name
It's mine alone to disgrace
I don't cater to all these vipers
Dressed in empath's clothing

It would be a fine proposition
If I hadn't once been just like her

Been losing grip, on sinking ships
You showed up just in time

And I'd say
Come back, come back, come back to me like
You would before you said,
'It's not that easy'
Before the fight, before I locked you out
But I take it all back now

It was real enough
(Whether weather be the frost)
To get me through
(Or the violence of the dog days)
(Out on waves, being tossed)
(I'm on waves, out being tossed)
I swear
(Is there a line that we could just go cross?)
You were there

These days I haven't been sleeping
Staying up, playing back myself leaving
When your birthday passed and I didn't call

Clear blue water
High tide came and brought you in
And I could go on and on, on and on and I will
Skies grew darker
Currents swept you out again
And you were just gone and gone, gone and gone

With you, I serve
With you, I fall down
Down
Watch you breathe in
Watch you breathin' out
Out

Something med school did not cover
Someone's daughter
Someone's mother

I can't decide if it's a choice
Getting swept away
I hear the sound of my own voice
Asking you to stay

You'll see me in hindsight
Tangled up with you all night
Burnin' it down
Someday, when you leave me
I bet these memories
Follow you around

Get me with those green eyes, baby, as the lights go down
Give me something that'll haunt me when you're not around
'Cause I see sparks fly whenever you smile

Breaking down, I hit the floor
All the pieces of me shattered
As the crowd was chanting 'More!'
I was grinning like I'm winning
I was hitting my marks
'Cause I can do it with a broken heart

Photo album on the counter,
Your cheeks were turning red
You used to be a little kid with glasses
In a twin-sized bed
And your mother's telling stories 'bout you
On the tee-ball team
You taught me 'bout your past
Thinking your future was me

I was in my new house placing daydreams
Patching up the crack along the wall
I pass it and lose track of what I'm saying
'Cause that's where I was when I got the call

Salt air
And the rust on your door
I never needed anything more
Whispers
Of 'Are you sure?'
'Never have I ever before'

There's somethin' 'bout the way
The street looks when it's just rained
There's a glow off the pavement
You walk me to the car
And you know I wanna ask you to dance right there
In the middle of the parking lot
Yeah
Oh yeah

'Cause there we are again
In the middle of the night
We're dancing 'round the kitchen
In the refrigerator light
Down the stairs, I was there
I remember it all too well

New money, suit and tie
I can read you like a magazine
Ain't it funny? Rumors fly
And I know you heard about me

'She would've made such a lovely bride
What a shame she's fucked in the head,' they said
But you'll find the real thing instead
She'll patch up your tapestry that I shred

So I'll watch your life in pictures
Like I used to watch you sleep
And I feel you forget me
Like I used to feel you breathe
And I keep up with our old friends
Just to ask them how you are
Hope it's nice where you are