Making mac and cheese for dinner Reading books over and over and over Navigating toddler meltdowns Nursing and shushing and rocking a baby to sleep And I just saw a video of a man killed. Changing diapers Reenacting the cars movie Singing silly songs And thinking about how I saw him executed in plain daylight. Coaching my toddler to take a deep breath when he’s frustrated and trying to calm my nervous system too because I know I know I know that my children feel can this anxiety. Trying and failing to resist that urge to look at the comments during nap time and seeing that people don’t care, how can people not care and how am I supposed to send my children out into a world where people simply don’t care about each other and It’s time to cut up an apple Watch tractor videos Dance with my toddler And pretend I’m not filled with a sense of dread.

modern motherhood

I don’t know how to be a parent living in this reality

EVEN if he had a g*n (which I’m not convinced he did… witness reports say it was a phone) he was ON THE GROUND AND RESTRAINED AND THEY STILL SH*T HIM! what the actual fuck is going on??

saw the video and I’m shaking

so we’re all done using tiktok, yes?

picture of weather app. actual temperature -20 degrees fahrenheit and feels like temperature is -28.

gross

we’re going to be under an extreme cold watch for the next several days and I’m dreading not being able to leave the house with my kids. getting out and doing ANYTHING in the mornings is how I keep sane 🥴

picture of a note called “cars figurines” with a have and want section

are you even a toddler parent if you don’t have a note like this on your phone?? my 2 year old is obsessed with cars and he just got the little mini figures and mack for christmas. pics included in the “want” section because my mil is also searching 😂

the world is so fucking grim

my toddler is obsessed with the snowflake day episode of daniel tiger and I think I’ve seen it at least 10 times over the past few days ❄️

toddlerhood summed up in one interaction.

me: do you want more strawberries?
L: (scream) NO!
me: okay
L: …how about more strawberries?
me: sure buddy

😂🤦🏻‍♀️

to do list for today:
• take down christmas tree
• deep clean living room
• organize new toys into some sort of toy rotation system and set out a few (I did this once and didn’t keep up with it but there’s way too much out right now)
• finish kids’ laundry and pull out next size for E

christmas tree with silver ornaments and two clothes hangers hanging on it

the toddler added some ornaments to the tree 🎄

elf on the shelf sitting next to a christmas craft (green pipe cleaners in a “tree” shape and beads for ornaments)

day 21
set out a craft to work on

elf on the shelf in a red stocking with the white letter L

day 19 (forgot to take a pic - elf hanging on the fridge)

day 20

wooden food set

small pink toy car

cherry shaped teething toy for baby

took my toddler to the store to pick out two gifts for his dad (birthday and christmas) and a gift for baby sister. here’s what he picked! 😂

an elf on the shelf, covered in stickers, sitting next to sheets of christmas stickers

day 18
elfie brought some stickers!

what is this?? yum 🤤

elf on the shelf hanging on a christmas tree

day 17 🎄

elf on the shelf sitting in a toy car on the top of a slide

day 16
sitting on top of the slide

elf on the shelf, sitting on a toddler’s chair reading a book. a christmas tree is in the background.

day 15

E is rolling back to belly on one side! girl, you should only be 3 months! what are you doing 😭

elf on the shelf in a bowl of fruit, holding on to a banana

day 14

my two year old is starting to recognize emotions and use feeling words and it’s so cute! “gonna be mad again” and “excited to open crane” 🥹

elf on the shelf sitting inside a kitchen cabinet, holding a pouch

day 13
hiding in the snack cabinet

supposed to feel like -17 tomorrow 🥶 I hate winter

screenshot of a post office build in animal crossing new horizons

mini post office build in the middle of my neighborhood 📬

#animalcrossing #acnh

elf on the shelf in a toy bug cage

day 12
stuck in the bug cage 🐞

elf on the shelf sitting on a partially colored coloring sheet, holding a marker

day 11

my project of the last few days is done! I moved all my villager houses to a neighborhood set up. a really tedious process that involved way too much math 😮‍💨 #acnh