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but in another genre. its so unfair. i almost cried right there in the meeting. idk im just so pissed. im stuck on babysitting this whole year and gonna do such a bad job bc im not suited for this film. meanwhile this other guys pitch is getting melded into mine while im stuck babysitting
im helping out on the film thats rlly similar to my pitch, so i went to a meeting today. the director was talking about feedback he recieved from the teacher to modify the ending and the way he described it was almost the exact wording i described my ending .... like this is literally just my film+
like im grateful that i get the chance to direct while also getting to keep all rights and creative control over my pitch to work on in my own time. but it also sucks. im rlly annoyed.
i went through all the greenlit pitches with my sibling, and maybe theyre biased or just trying to make me happy but they genuinely seemed to believe my pitch was better than everyone elses. i just dont understand what im doing wrong.
i worked so hard just to get slapped in the face like this.
my teachers actually assigned me to direct a film. specifically a 2nd year sequel film that i have no creative control over and its something i wont be able to enter into film festivals (because its a sequel not a standalone). this is such a joke. my job is literally babysitting 2nd year students.
not nuking this thread yet bc it is like my personal diary and im attached. anyways as i expected, my film wasnt greenlit. i thought id be ok but ngl i cried in class a little (yeah they announced this all in class. in front of everyone). but my wish to direct was like a monkey paw or whatever bc
i get my confirmation in a few hours 😀 and then i will probably nuke this thread
whatever. this whole crashout is kinda helpful in terms of writing Odette's emotions i guess. for when i will be solo working on this film as an animatic to post on youtube.
i go to all the local industry events. so i know who actually studies in their spare time and who goes to industry events. i know who actually puts in all tje work, versus who is just handed opportunities for no reason. and idk im just so sick of this.
genuinely in my entire cohort of 100 people, i dont think anyone works harder than me while still staying authentic and not doing sneaky and mean shit. i know this because i run the club for people to study art, and am a very frequent attendee of the only other club for people to study art. and
and so it just kills me that a man like him gets 2 opportunities to direct while i work so much harder and no one cares. im so sick of this.
i already hated him last year, from working on the film he directed. but im generally a very polite person and dont show when i hate someone. but after the club incident my rage has passed that level and i genuinely cant be in the same room as him anymore.
and then when everyone found out that he didnt do this task after 5 months, they were like "hes just so silly like that". girl he completely fucked over my student club in its final year of existence. he fucked me over so he would have more time to work on his pitch.
and theres more than that
he joined my student club, where he had 5 months to do one small but very important task. and he just didnt do it. despite multiple reminders. despite how obviously important this task was.
and not only that, he didnt communicate at all. no "sorry, just give me another week". nothing.
theres a guy i hate who i know is going to get his pitch greenlit and get to direct again. and its just so unfair that a man who is as incompetent as him keeps getting roles like this. the reason i hate him is because he directed the main film i worked on last year, where he sucked. and then also
greenlight status revealed tomorrow. but i have some intel that makes me 99% certain it wont be greenlit. and its whatever, i guess that just means i can work on the project in my own time with more creative control. what hurts is that ive fucked up my one chance to direct a film.
i might just email a teacher and be like "we have music pls dont think that we dont have music. and its also rlly good music. we have music."
pitching was 2 days ago and i feel like shit ever since. i did such a bad job at presenting the project. its a musical but i forgot to even mention that we have a full music demo. i feel so stupid. everyone worked so hard and i fucked it up.
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pitching tomorrow im gonna kms myself
rewriting everything again with pitching just 3 days away but draft 13 is The One i can feel it
every crashout helps me write the story better ... crying last night over how it feels like no one around me even sees me as human. then im like wait. thats the exact feeling odette is experiencing rn
so stressed about pitching i feel so sick :((((((((
i am so confident in the work of the musicians i collaborated with though omfg the song is beautiful. maybe that can carry me.
pitching in almost 2 weeks and while im not confident in my work i am confident in the amount of work ive done. i know for a fact ive done way more work on my pitch than anyone else.
but i also worked way harder than anyone else on my last pitch and that didnt get me anywhere lol so idk
aaaaa its turning out so long i think its gonna end up double the length my teachers want for grad films 😬😬😬😰😰😰😰😰😰
trying to work on the animatic but i keep pausing to freak out. this is so good holy shit. they srsly have to greelight ts. im so srs. who cares of its too long and too ambitious they have to greenlight it.
