Yesterday had a really random desire to make an apple crumble, so I did! It didn't go 100% to plan as I've never made once from scratch before but it was delicious. Didn't take a picture though....
It's weird, I stay more focused having a video/ livestream going than not having anything. Music doesn't work.
My head is completely messed up. Waiting on test results to see if I'm at high risk of DCM due to family history. I want to be clear, but I'm gonna feel guilty for it if I am, when I know the rest of my family have suffered. Why them, why not me?
Last practice until September tonight, but we are still performing throughout. Got a lot to get through but will finish with tea, coffee and cake!
That fixed it. Don't know if something was held in a cache from some testing/pre-work I did last week but a fresh publish of source pbix did the job.
Oh boy, I am so tired this morning. May be partially self-inflicted.
Anyway, coffee motivation is kicking in and the to find out why PowerBI is telling me something I know to be not true.
Introduced my eldest to a new board game (for him) while his brother was at a party. He kicked my backside on the first game, and only narrowly lost the second game. So proud of him.
So didn't get to swimming last night again, but this time it was due to my kid who was on residential trip. Supposed to arrive back at 5.30, didn't get back till after 7. So I'm taking that as a not my L.
Right, hyping myself up to go swimming tonight...
Oops, just been told I need to book more holiday as we're now over half way through the year and I've only taken 9 days so far this year and got 16 days to book...
Still really frustrated with myself regarding last night. I push myself to overcome these anxiety things, but when I can't it really affects me.
Anyway, another day at work - got clients in next week and need to prepare.
Looked up some swimming sessions. Hyped myself up to go all day, got to zero hour and chickened out. Anxiety is the worst, I always end up "what if"ing myself out of things.
I look at myself and I hate how overweight I am, but I can never seem to get myself doing anything about it. I particularly hate seeing my reflection when I'm out.
But I can never seem to get myself to do anything about it. How do people get motivated to start, is there a best way to start.
That felt like a long weekend, followed up by two "out" nights today and tomorrow. Not actually out tonight but I've got someone coming over so I can teach them how to use some new software for our church - I consider this out because I have to be extrovert, when I just wanna game!
Oh I needed this... Don't care it's 27 outside and I've got 3 fans on the go.
Hit post and got the notification it's on its way!
Got zero motivation - need a fresh bean coffee. Where's the coffee van...
Brain has stopped braining
Busy week ahead... Gotta convince people to change their processes after many years doing things the wrong way.
Anyway, the upcoming age of sail game 'Ahoy' looks amazing - so glad it hit it's Kickstarter target - would love to see it get to the open world stretch goals. I've been wanting a game like this for so long. I love the Bolitho and Hornblower series, this is right on my quarterdeck.
The moment you start to profile someone based on any of these aspects you become the problem - it goes all ways.
The things I'm seeing coming out of America are truly terrifying. The sad fact is the UK doesn't seem too far behind.
This rhetoric of some humans are better than other humans because of race, beliefs, sexuality, gender or how many zeros your bank account has, is terrifying.
Played OpenTTD way too long last night. Got completely sucked in and next thing I know it's past midnight.
Sleepy this morning 🥱
Trying to introduce new systems is always a headache. Everyone wants to, until they have to, then they don't want to anymore. Eugh...
Good practice last night, the choir sang very well through a mixture of different genres of song, some upbeat and some reflective. Lots of energy, lots of laughs and lots of good vibes.
#ChoirLeader #TSA
Been feeling so flat lately.
This is the week where others lack of planning catches up with me!
There's still too much Christmas snacks in the house.
In quiet possibly the poshest hotel I've ever stayed in while I'm in jeans and hoody...
There's definitely something about Christmas Market Street food that is just 👌