I've been harassed online since I was 15 years old going back to twitter times and the harassment got to me in so many different ways but even then I was able to overcome some aspects of it and help get myself out of a rubble by building a support network and working on my art skills.
𝐏𝐚𝐤𝐢𝐤 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐊𝐞𝐭𝐡𝐫𝐲
for gunk_nontional's 𝘈 𝘚𝘬𝘺 𝘛𝘩𝘢𝘵'𝘴 𝘈𝘭𝘭 𝘠𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘖𝘸𝘯 archiveofourown.org/works/833209...
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#ff14 #ffxiv
I think there's a lot to say about the underlying desire for physical media and the like that can't be explained simply by saying "well I like to own a thing." it's more than that, though that's certainly part of it. it's an aesthetic that represents a desire for a type of friction in our lives.
“Yale admits roughly 2,300 students a year. SUNY’s 64-campus system serves nearly 400,000.”
Today I wrote 13 pages of essay through intense nausea and migraine. I am a warrior. I am only mionrly destroyed my bodily conditions
The point of the university as a concept is that it's been here for a thousand years and meant to be here another thousand. Turning education over to producing what the market needed five years ago is never going to work well.
“We are collateral damage.” - Mark Graham, Wayback Machine
When preservation is caught in the crossfire, it’s not just libraries that lose—it’s the public’s access to history, knowledge, and truth.
The web shouldn’t disappear behind closed doors.
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it's good for the spine
(a gift for a friend)
#ff14
We didn't deserve this day.
The President of the USA declaring that "a whole civilisation will die tonight" is not something that arrives out of a vacuum. It is precipitated by the widespread international failure to hold USA, Israel, and their allies including the UK, accountable for their actions for many decades
A bathroom selfie of a white, brunette, lady wearing a butter colored, cable-knit sweater. She's not quite smiling.
A bathroom selfie of a white, brunette, lady putting the tip of her glasses to her lips. She's wearing a dark green sweater, a multi-colored scarf, and is giving a knowing look to her phone.
My contributions to ragebaiting
If being a girlblogger doesnt work out i could always become a many armed many toothed creature singing from a thousand misshapen mouths to herald a new age
I'll be doing an MFA in Fiction! Fully funded!
got into grad school today :3
After taking time to connect with the Pretti family and with their consent, we are honored to share that we have created the Alex Pretti Nursing Scholarship.
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YES dealing with the existential crisis of BEING BAD AT SOMETHING is a necessary step to GETTING GOOD AT SOMETHING. Anything worth doing is hard to master. It’ll carve you into a better person and eventually you learn that you are capable of SO much.
But there's also so much queer fiction that looks at what happens after. The vampire. The ghost. The memory. Undeath is almost as present as death in queer stories as death. And that's so fascinating to me. We are what death cannot tame
Death is such a powerful figure in queer fiction. Certainly "Bury Your Gays" as a trope tells us that tragedy is all that awaits us. We reckon with generational griefs and traumas. And so there's this thread of melancholy woven through all our art
everything is getting stranger all the time and we just gotta live in that
SOMETHING BEAUTIFUL IS GOING TO HAPPEN
We cannot accept systemic and state sanctioned transphobia. If your politicians aren't loudly voicing their support for trans rights then you should be drowning their phone lines with calls and should be canvassing for their primaries competitors
Arachnids are reclusive. Hides, funnels, disguises. They wait for their prey and hide from their predators. As a last resort they might bite or deploy other defense mechanisms. Some jumping spiders have evolved to become mimics of threats like ants: Ant-moding. Prehistoric land invertebrates had such a brief period of freedom to develop before the arrival the vertebrates. Afterwards, their survival and evolution has depended on their ability to avoid predation above all else. However, not every species of arachnid is quite so dependent on invisibility. Araneidae, or orb weavers, are big, brightly colored, and weave webs in extremely visible areas in order to catch their prey. I've always been inspired by seeing a creature I've come to know as secretive be so bold and out.
We celebrate trans day of visibility in the face of our constant invisibility. Invisibility caused both by our erasure in the very fabric of cis-heterosexual society and our own actions of self preservation through hiding in our closets, homes, outfits, and online spaces. In 2018, I wore a "they/them" pronoun pin to work for the first time. I was working at a venue and the show was mostly industrial music, so I felt reasonably safe. I hoped to prove to myself that being out was possible. A patron made fun of my pronouns saying, "well we're all comprised of microorganisms, I guess." No one used my pronouns. Part way through the show some proud boys showed up, and I chose to take it off before telling them to, "fuck off" and kicking them out. I left it in my pocket for the rest of the night and waited a few more years to come out.
Once I finally did, the joy of finding myself was quickly tempered with the reality of being trans. The abuse, sexual assault, discrimination, and isolation wasn't enough to send me back into the closet. But, it was enough to worsen my agoraphobia to about where it was just after surviving a mass shooting. I spent the first year using remote jobs and my savings to hide in my apartment as much as was possible. But, this wasn't sustainable, nor was it what I truly wanted. I am not a tarantula or a recluse, as much as I wished I were. I'm an orb weaver, and a social one at that. I prefer sitting on my web, loud and visible.
It hasn't been easy. At work, I interact with thousands of new people a day. Every moment I'm aware of what I am. Every moment I have a list running of people organized by most to least safe. Every moment I've accounted for all the exits and makeshift weapons in my vicinity. Years after coming out, there was a tornado touch down during one of my shifts at the bookstore. Adrenaline pumping, I rushed to get our customers into the basement. One, who didn't like the tone of my voice, called me a faggot. Even during a natural disaster, I was still first and foremost trans. Like the spider, the world will always feel fundamentally ¿dangerous as long as I'm in plain sight.
TDOV is a strange and complicated thing, but I will always like this thing I made for it a few years into transition. (1/2)
I read through the article and through the letters sent to these paypros and you guys should too (like please actually read them, don't rely on me). It specifically cites religious and political views but the language is wide open. This is good
A THIRD of this country has enacted legislation that debases and/or criminalizes a minority for existing in public spaces by targeting a necessary bodily function.
Sickening.
“If you’d like to pass better, try saying nothing” is such next level misogyny I got dizzy.
Sorry about your life dude. Seems sad and confusing, go with God.
every day my roommates come downstairs and walk past me studying in the living room, blithely joyous, unawares that i (alike to Judas) am about to ambush them with the stupidest pun theyve ever heard in their life
a banner showcasing rounded still images from We're All Going to the World's Fair, So Pretty and Lingua Franca with the wrods TRAMPS, TROUBLEMAKERS AND TRAILBLAZERS: TRANS FILMMAKERS to the left
It appears that the news has broken that Caden Mark Gardner and I have programmed a series on Trans Filmmakers for the Criterion Channel. These films will be available in April
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The fact that race science and eugenics are inextricable from this technology is also why its makers and sellers and pushers do not want you looking too deep into its histories and/or consequences, why they shout you down so hard, why they demonize critics.
Garbage plates my beloved
People keep saying “oh so you want OPEN BORDERS” as some kind of gotcha and like. Yeah. When I was a kid you could just drive into Canada. On accident, even. It was great, and I think we should do that instead of kidnapping children. Normalize being normal instead of being kidnapping weirdos