Not going to be opening for anything for the foreseeable future. Just going to draw what I feel like, maybe start doing gaming streams and occasional art streams on Twitch/Picarto respectively. My psyche is exhausted and I can't take the pressure anymore. I'll finish what I owe, including gifts.
Thank you! ♥
Lep beans > yeen beans, always. Though they do look great together. ;) ❤️
Thank ya ♥
You silly dragon, you're awesome. ♥
Clairebear if you see this, good to see your stuff. Hope you're well. :3
Highly adorable! ♥
Freakin' adorable, would love to see the finished comic. ♥
Damn, I loved these growing up! So cool!
Therris started his birthday out the right way...
Who needs coffee when you can have yeen booty? ;3
Belated birthday gift for my friend @therris.pawbs.gay ♥
Wayyyy late to replying lol but thank you!
Thank ya. XP
Thank you for 600 Followers! ♥
Un-knotty version. :U
For @wanderwolfo.bsky.social and Woofie ♥
#nsfwfurryart #furryporn #LytePup
I'll get this chip off my shoulder someday, and make everyone who likes my work proud. The support I've gotten means everything to me, and I hope each and every one of you will stick around to see what I can do.
(but seriously if you read all this, why? XD)
That being said, I don't expect people to read this. Though if you've wasted the last few minutes reading my obsessive life-reflections, I appreciate it. I know that striving to do better is worth it, because drawing is what I want to do. The struggle makes it worth it.
Frankly, it's pretty crappy of me to vent here, but it's much easier for me to type this out than go to someone and explain how I feel. Much simpler to put word to page. Somehow, I think it gets all these emotions out of my head and gives them a place to fuck off to.
I want to do better. I want, desperately, to impress the people who give me their time and attention. I will keep pushing, keep working to make things that I feel confident are up to the standards of my audience. I just felt I needed to get this off my chest.
And then, most of the time, I delete it. Why? I feel it doesn't compare. That's what this ultimately boils down to. I don't feel like I'm good enough, and that's something that stems from childhood. From my parents, from seeing my younger sister succeed, from emotional abuse from teachers.
I know what I need to do. I need to shrug it off, try to tell myself that I do amount to something, that my work is worth seeing. But then I find myself spending time on a new sketch, a random idea that I haven't exactly thought through, and I spend several hours sketching something inadequate.
This post isn't in any way an attempt to get sympathy. And I try not to present this stuff to people who've followed me to see paws and dicks. However, I think it's important to talk about, as this has gotten to the point that it impacts every aspect of my life. I've wasted a lot of time.
I'm trying my best to move beyond these feelings, but it's incredibly difficult. Perhaps the reason I take forever is because of this pessimism that what I'm creating isn't going to be good enough for people who buy from me.
Paralyzing. That's pretty much the only word I can use to describe it.
When I start reflecting on my speed, I tend to get depressed, and develop severe anxiety. This all stems from one simple idea: that I'm a disappointment. I've spent the majority of the past five years struggling through these feelings. It's impacted my work, and it's torn all the joy out of this.
This is pretty out of the blue, but I'm experiencing some major imposter syndrome right now.
A lot of the time, I don't feel as though my art even remotely compares to some of my favorite artists. When it comes to production, I'm slow. You all know that. I'm painfully aware of that.
Paw icons! First is for Kotiyo, Second for StrayBlazer. :D
SOUND WARNING, I'm listening to music x.x
Not a good mood, for sure. X3
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