is it so much to ask that a ruthless dom beats the piss out of you for fun ???? Is it ?????????

YEAHH THIS ROCKS

yeahhh... yeah.

isn't it weird how bad people are often the ones in control

something i genuinely can't stop thinking about is the fact that Bluestrings implied that because I asked for it at 17 that I was in any way responsible for what happened to me

victim blaming is insane

this is all i can imagine drawpile moderators looking like after someone told me they depicted one as a stonetoss character

shes been sold!

have been appreciating all of the support, even the small bits help a ton as it means i can treat myself or my mom or dad to take the stress off while the larger bits of support can be used for primarily my bills and meds. thank you everyone <:')

this is my account, who cares

Screaming into the void but I know I'll never reach resolution.

The only true answer is nonexistence.

All because of two users.
Bittermimikyu and Woefullymedic.
These two users did everything in their power to try and ruin my life socially, and they sure as shit succeeded.

As if the word of some random porn artist was put against the word of some divine entity.
Like mine means less, they simply decreed it untruth and went on their merry way.
I guess the reward is that they can continue to interact with their pedophile friends. True colors, and all of that.

All the while Drawpile continues to foster an environment where more children will fall victim to the same mechanics of manipulation and the same manipulators.

And you know the worst part? They told me I lied to them.

Melodramatic, I know, but who can blame me?
I don't have a life. I miserably crawl along to the amusement of others.
I'm a temporary engagement. An obsession, maybe, or an object.
Always to be cast aside, eventually. A toy, a used up tube of toothpaste.

Twenty year old women. Three of them, and an adult man. TheNars, Chompyghost/Chompinky, Indigoop and DukeNukeThem.

Varying degrees of sexual interaction. Always telling me that it was normal to act that way, all of them.

Being corrupted in your youth by sexual deviants makes you look a lot like them, I guess.

You become... I don't know. Less than human in the eyes of others.
A diagnosed hypersexual. Filth.
A creature, not a person.

My life is a miserable cycle of hating myself for things it feels like I didn't do but ultimately did.
My father is dying. My mother has heart disease.
My friends abandoned me.
I don't know what to do with myself.

There you have it.
After my father was diagnosed with terminal cancer, the scumfucks running Drawpile message me telling me I'm permanently banned from community sessions.

The pedophile who groomed me was not banned permanently, for context.

I don't want to have to but I do have another design I'm looking to sell.

In desperate need of money right now and I have this girl with a good few pieces of artwork made of her.
If you're interested let me know, please.

type of mfs that will find ANY reason to hate someone except a good reason

I hate the state of the world when it comes to this stuff specifically lol... its the same shit with "minor coded characters" and they're just short (as if height and body hair determine age or maturity)

There's pedophiles and then theres mfs who wish ppl were pedophiles for some godforsaken reason

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i wasn't originally going to ask but this is my ko-fi

if you could donate even $5 if you have spare dough i'd appreciate it, we're going to need the support
(me, my mother and my brother)

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ct results came back

dad is full of cancer i guess. inoperable and late-stage, very aggressive, not sure what we're going to do...

i'm already miserable lately
now i'm being told that my father has a mass in his chest with a 60% likelihood to be tracheal cancer

i'm not going to beg for handouts but please, if anyone is interested in the characters i have up for sale atm i'd like them gone so i can stress less abt rent

sincerely what is the fucking point anymore

and then people wonder why artists online are constantly talking about wanting to kill themselves

my irl friends gave up on me because their lives were better off without me and i spend 24/7 of my life in my room on my computer rotting like an orange on the counter

i hate my life

five hundred dollars a month, minimum, to stay alive and keep paying rent
all the while i still have to pay for my own food and other belongings so i usually am only eating one or two meals a day
all the while i want to draw what i want, but can't, and the stuff i draw for money doesn't sell either.

titta pog

not a new adopt but i decided to clean up her design
also playing with the idea of moving to design more transfem adopts tho i don't wanna step on sensitive territory too much

but yea... transfem bunny girl with FAT knockers and booty
oh and piercings bc piercings are hot