bsky.app/profile/who.... just a heads up to keep yourself informed! Follow the World Health Organization especially if you’re American!!

Just a little arson….. as a treat

It is morally correct to punch a Nazi

One certain thing about the next four years is that we survive as communities, not alone

Autism is like staring through a telescope at something you were just supposed to look at with your eyes, and also the telescope is bolted to the floor so you can't move it or switch your focus, you just have to keep looking

Wow! I’m both relieved and suspicious. And I’m not sure if we will go back to using it or not because they probably did sell out!! 😣😩America is hell!

well I’ve clicked on the ticky tocky app 3 times already today and then remembered 😥
It’s so so sad we don’t get to see our friends’ videos anymore. Also just seeing other systems describe their day or experiences helped us feel validated and not alone with this disorder 😭😭😭 -Ivy 🌿
#osddid #system

Never date anyone who makes you feel like you have to hide your stuffed animals!

DID is so fun bc why does this post mention me by name? Who wrote it? Also what fragments are pretending to be me? Why is this something that happens that I was unaware of? The questions are endless and yet I have no answers 🤦🏻‍♀️ - Ryan 🍒

Good I need someone to punch

Lol fr!! 😅😅 why do brains gotta be like that? Lol 😂

Okay so true!! Normal is not a thing!! Having DID is a constant wtf is going on? And an Idk and roll with it type of deal but also whyyy brain?? Lol

Feelings

open.spotify.com/track/27DxZk... the song playing in my brain at the moment bc why

We try to use apps to express ourselves, but oftentimes our protectors/gatekeepees have a problem with us sharing and that hinders how much we can say! But we’re hoping this smaller lesser known platform will help them loosen the reins lol

Yes we do journal but we struggle with consistency and the hosts are very — let’s say bossy and tend to be perfectionists about it!! Tracking the dates of posts is a good idea and definitely something we’ll have to try to remember to do!!!

my best is not anywhere near good enough! And I sound like a broken record, but I’m tired of the way the world is and the way people are to each other and the way I see and i feel and i understand it all too painfully well. And ughh i feel like i am going to implode, yk? - ⚡️

No bc if my brain wasn’t soupy and traumatized and my body wasn’t breaking down with chronic pain and illness and if money wasn’t the end all be all of everything in society, I feel like I could do so much good, but instead I’m clinging to life and doing my best to survive this hell and…

Is that normal? I don’t really know how else to explain it 🤷🏻‍♂️

but also our fragments like to disguise themselves as the other more differentiated parts in the system and that’s confusing and off putting bc we can like tell this is not Ryan but she walks and talks like Ryan and does as Ryan does until she doesn’t…

Can someone explain poly fragmentation to us bc we are all very confused by the influx of sudden awareness we have of our parts and inner world and the weird nature of communication between parts in different subsystems and stuff — like it feels maybe poly fragmentation could be at play

I am a person of many thought and very limited time in front - Kaz ⚡️

If this account becomes a full on brain dump, public diary sorta thing for us, I apologize to the followers, but I’m feeling like talking today and that usually involves a lot of nonsense yapping! You can tell me to shut up, but also many have tried to do so before and failed!

Am I making sense??? Bc this is all just stream of consciousness rambling at thoughts that have come to haunt me… — Kaz ⚡️

And then that makes me think of the Franz Kafka quote:“I do understand — and it is terrible” and like yeah i understand and it’s the 🦆ing worst! My pattern recognition and intuition is just very very good and on point and it can’t be turned off and I can’t look away like you know? Iykyk 😫😫

The line — “You see things. You keep quiet about them. And you understand.” — from Perks of Being Wallflower is actually sooo
Idk it just stings as an Autistic person growing up having to be hypervigilant and parentified and raised a girl, like damn, I do see things and I do understand…

Something that rarely leaves my thoughts is how autistic people are expected to have superpowers to be accepted by society.

Oh my gosh yes! It’s so difficult to let go of that need to know why and just focus on taking care of ourself but that’s what we need to do nonetheless!

we so fr get this 😣😤

Ooof feeling so small and scared but not knowing why has to be one of the worst things about being a system… like obviously a little is going through it, but we haven’t yet developed proper system communication skills for them to explain so we just have to ride it out and remind ourself we’re safe