hmmm...
opening up or talking about my personal grievances and problems proved to be overbearing or annoying. its best i just shut up and never talk about it anymore.

it just puts me in a slump whenever i think back about me lending money i had saved for an operation and a GPU upgrade to relatives.

or other times that i did lend, and before that, and before that..

im always at a state of trying to catch up in finances.
i just want to sleep forever.

sometimes i think of killing myself just for the lulz.