really gonna miss the girls

what’s the fucking point!

i’m just never gonna talk about bad stuff again and just keep to myself and cry even more than i already do instwad

i’m just always sad and im sure everyone is tired of me talking about the same shit over and over

idk how i feel about it ..

how i keep getting into situations when i don’t talk to people or leave my house needs to be studied

getting a little too into my [redacted] ship feels so i know i’m spiraling mentally ell em aye oh

my psychiatrist being the one to give me the words to finally get the motivation to do it is really, really ironic lmao

idk why i even try

again i’m always proven right in the end but yet i’m the crazy one

:/

i need to sleep. started talking about my ex to a friend i’m been closer to lately and i started crying. i don’t think she noticed but man it still hurts so much

too sensitive to survive

hate my brain so much

i wouldn’t stay either

same as always

i love having no real friends and having no one to turn to ever ever ever i love that everyone critcizes everything i do ever and i have no one to vent to about it

whateverrrrrr whatever whatever whatever whatever none of it matters

:/

idk if it’s just my period or what but i’m not a fan of how my friends lately keep making jokes at my expense or call me stupid

i don’t have anyone i can just sit and vibe with. parallel play with. everyone is busy or doesn’t want to and i’m not close to anyone. but i just feel so broken

tired of feeling lonely

i just wish i had someone i could go to for the comfort i need in these times…

why can’t i be fucking NORMAL

i think i might have PMDD because my mood and mindset literally flipped like a switch and i think i’m having an anxiety attack

needing help doesn’t excuse how you treated people and the consequences even if they can understand and sympathize with you. it hurts. trust me i know!! but lmao WHEN WILL IT SINK IN

“i was urged to get help by these friends and as soon as i did they abandoned me” maybe think a little!!!

i don’t like shit taking people but when will my cousin learn that they’re the problem lol

hmmmmmm brain in a weird state. feeling like i don’t fit in anywhere and like i’m getting mixed signals. also just feeling inadequate at best at everything and feeling behind even in leisure. idk if that makes sense. idk if anyone understands.