I'm mad at me from this morning for not picking up groceries for me. I'm out of apples. That's hurtful.

He strokes his ear when Shane walks into the bar before the All Star Game. He was nervous about seeing Shane again. It's a stim, or at least a tell. In his living room maybe he was nervous about trying to find out if Shane's gay or bi.

As frustrating as it is, if it had gone any other way, they would have grown apart. This way they got all the oat sowing out of the way.

When they are talking on Ilya's couch in Episode 4.

Speaking of Crowell, I'm going to need him to get what he deserves in Unrivaled. And whoever he had trip Shane, too, because someone had to have tripped him.

Remember that time Scott Hunter ran his hand through his sweat soaked hair and then immediately shook that guy's hand? I hope that guy was Commissioner Crowell. Finding out two minutes later he had gay sweat on his hand would have been a nightmare for him.

Just lying in bed, thinking about Ilya lying on his couch with one hand holding his junk and the other hand stroking his ear. That's two self-soothing behaviors at the same time. I wonder what was so inappropriate I wonder what he was protecting himself one.

Well, there you go. The only thing that scared me more than Statistics was Theatre. I bet that's a fun job though.

When Ilya is first telling Shane about Svetlana before Shane's freak out, it feels like the beta version of the conversation at the cottage.

How did they get into it?

My weather map as of 515p CT. It shows a nasty looking storm front coming my way.

The first wave.

A sticker showing two stick figures reaching their arms toward each other, as if to send each other a hug. Below, it reads Air Hug.

OMG I love that so much! I do air hugs.

Sadly, I did not know Intimacy Coordinator was a job. If I had learnt, I would have been a great proficient.

My siesta was interrupted by the intrusive thought that it's awfully dark for not even 4p. Yep. Another tornado watch. This is 4 of the last 5 days?

Every time I try plotting, I end up "just taking a few notes. That leads to writing whole scenes. And there I am, pantsing again.

My thoughts exactly. I've experienced multiple days of tornado watches before, but not tornado warnings. I'm happy to say there was not a 4th night of tornado warnings.

LOL Right? He absolutely would.

It's surprising coming from Shane because he has to do everything the right way. Their first time together, I think Ilya was expecting a goodbye at the door, but Shane crossed his arms and looked away. Maybe he was trying to play it cool. Or as cool as the 'tism would allow.

Has anyone told Shane and Ilia that it's rude not to show your guest out?

The poor guy probably beat himself up about it all the way home.

Right, and it's not like Shane brings people to the cottage let alone romantic partners. So why would he even consider Shane might have a lover (LOL) staying with him. The way Dylan Walsh played it was excellent. His Oh Shit posture as he slinked away. His tone was all Sorry Forgive Me at home.

Poor Mr Hollander. He sees his son walking up to the cottage from the lake. Probably figures he'd wait and see what Rozanov is doing there. Suddenly they are making out and Ilya is grabbing Shane's ass. The dude has 5 seconds to react, give or take 1.5 seconds. I don't blame him for running.

If you're keeping score, this is night 3 of tornado warnings for me.

Yes! Couldn't have said it better.

It says I owe nothing and I'll get nothing back. It's too perfect. I don't trust that.

Isn't it? So much fun. Then I remembered I have to do my taxes.

Here's my night so far.
1. Turn on Heated Rivalry
2. Tornado Warning, take shelter
3. Come out 45min later
4. Turn on Heated Rivalry
5. Internet outage
6. Ice cream

I wonder if Yuna Hollander lies awake at night thinking about her "right up the butt" comment from 12yrs ago. Yep, Heated Rivalry again.

Well, that was more excitement than I wanted at 1-2am.