i have a personal rentry with an old one but i want to spruce it up and also work on my nekoweb... ☕

not in the comparing ocs to alters way but i love categorizing things and like assigning a sin+pkmn team+type/nature+ac type to everyone... i do it for ocs but also i kind of want to do a pokemon team thread ☕

i'm trying to keep everyone together but the vet visit ontop of everything else is kind of making us all feel really down.. plus youri and cody bleeding heavily onto me. ^_^; i'm just excited for tomodachi life! ☕

the way i as an alter always get attached to charas with inconsistent or fill-in-the-blanks writing (hollyleaf tsumugi) or 2% screentime (hachijo) needs to be studied in a lab.. ☕

pokefarm skiddo gogoat specials

gets obsessed with pokemon again just to hunt melan skiddo ☕

WHOTURNED OUT THE LIGHTS walks into a wall and my glasses+eyes fall off like a cartoon character

WEIRD?? the only extension ive changed is a web scrobbler iwill try disabling it THANKYOUUU

why are images not uploading in general? ☕

shiny

yay! :3

MY ICON ISN'T UPLOADING I LOOK LIKE A SKYPE ACCOUNT FROM 2015 ☕

i saw a comic about how meds helped someones barriers and im like . Man what medswas i on in 2020-2021 PUTME BACK ON IT 🍹

maybe if my fucking id WOULD COME IN THE MAILLLL I COULD MOVE ONNWITJ MY LIIFEEE 🍹

i wish sometimes you could vwnt on here and that itd then automatically rearrange into gibberish NOT IN THE RO13 WAY i just have a lot onmy mind that i have mental rules that i shoulsntntalk about or im evil or weird Because im normal 🍹

i have a lot on my mind but i just need to learnto deal with it 🍹

if i have another weird isoteric dream tonight i should blwo everything up 🍹

metas evolution is really funny bc idk if shes an introject or just exists but she went from a homu and hollyl3af kinnie to a hach/jo kin thats constantly bugging me and is one of the most social of us How does thst work 🍹

purring sphinx thing hitting me with its paws whilei watch friends read ze 🍹

grief is just a constant journey of finding new ways to be okay without someone and finding new ways to miss them. like i think about how in another world i think honestly id be living with her esp since her old house was in walking distance of everything and . I dont know . 🥪

i kind of forget sometimes how many grief memories i hold but i was talking to eve and everything just suddenly came out and i started crying i'm okay now but i don't know why we've been missing her so much lately 🥪

it's not that he doesn't like people he's just very introverted and interacts better with old people ialso think seeing our family friend/extutor has been making him want to front because i think he first formed when she was tutoring us # school stress woes🍹

i kind of think lox has been wanting to front for awhile now but hes kind of awkward with social interaction so hes letting me and meta front. meta and himare oomfies though or at least when he was hosting again in like late 2024 she helped him with social stuff 🍹

i keep having really vivid and weird dreams and nightmare last night i had a dream that someone was standing outside my house staring through my window surely not amanifestation of my social anxiety or a mysterious alter. and then my alters lox and laurel ahd a weird dream together . Okay 🍹

okay this account isntour refl,ective emo journal SORRY 🍹

i think its healthy to an extent as long as you dont dwell. time and distance doesnt mean you cant still care deeply especially people who have passed 🍹

both with my mom and certain old friends. even the one who shittalked me online and hated me after she split on me. i feel like part of me will always carry the people of my past with me even if i also feel like im on a boat floating away slowly from my past and past selfits a strange feeling 🍹

ILY TOO EUPHIELS Bereally niceys to yourself

me and meta are funny because we both famously have always had really bad barriers and theyre still bad with each other but we get faint wisps offriendship 🍹

meta has been fronting for me/helping me stay stable Thankyou meta. despite being the thing of us two im curled up in its lap like a cat while it types for me and such ,. go mysphinx 🍹

the bittersweetness that comes with grief as you start to heal and grow out of your shell. i wish you were here to see this vs would i have been better or worse if i never lost you vs would you be proud of who i am now. My deep thoughts 🍹

i had to listen to myold tutor tell me about an event that apparently happened in hs that i have no memory of . I FEEL BAD USUALLY ELDERLY PEOPLE ARE SUPPOSED TO HAVE THE BAD MEMORY but ive just blocekd out most of my highschool years 🍹