In the meantime enjoy spam from my alt account

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ・ —Sine te nihil sum—・
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ・ #gposers ・

"Reflexes, huh? Time to put them to the test..."

・ #zenos ・ #ゼノス ・ #echoposes ・ #gposers ・

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ・ —Abyssal Sovereign—・

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⊹ ・ #zenos ・ #ゼノス ・ ⊹

I've been going through and doing proper gposes for my Eorzea Collection submissions to make them more eyecatching and this is def a fave :3

#gposers #vanillagpose #eorzeacollection

I'm really looking forward to 7.5 and learning what this scene means and what it's foreshadowing (っ˘ω˘ς )

Hoping i can at least get a break for one night so I can go see bbno$ with the bestie ORZ

Still alive
still off work
Probably losing my job soon as a result
Probably needing brain surgery at some point soon

So thats fun

Oh and I got approved for my blue disability badge which will make things so much easier with my chronic spine condition! So that's some good at least!!!

literally trying to escape from my head through the bottom of my skull so that needs to be monitored now.
So all in all I'm doing great 🙃 🙃 🙃

to wear glasses with a special lens in them to correct my newly acquired double vision due to aforementioned brain shut down.
I also can't see shit beyond arms length as it's one giant blur so no TV for me for a bit.
I have Chiari Malformation type 1 with a 6mm drop meaning my brain is quite

oh man so I got discharged last night.
Tl;dr I had a chiari flareup that triggered status migrainosus aka a 6 week long migraine to the point where my brain started shutting down some functions, i've lost part of my vision (though that should come back), i'm off work for the time being and I need

Soooooo ive been in hospital since last week.
Currently in a specialist neurology unit and unsure when im getting out orz
Turns out i didnt have BPPV but the start of a chiari flareup.
So that’s fun

Also you should 100% go follow that page instead as you get to have all the benefits of me but with the fangirl filter off and power level dialled up to 1000 as i obsess over fictional war criminals and ikea stuffed animals

Im currently processing two potentially life changing diagnostic results in the span of 6 weeks and if that doesnt fuck you up mentally….WELL…..

Also i feel all i do is give life updates here periodically.
Anyway new update.
I have another neurologist referal. This time not for my spine but my brain 🙃
Was in a&e last week due to a severe case of bppv and was given a head ct and told they “found something unrelated to my visit”.
So THATS fun

Im considering closing this page down and just keeping the username saved.
I dont see much point when im more active over on @ikara.etheirys.social

I am not used to being perceived this much haha

No but like

I remade by banned account at the end of April and its been a wild ride of somehow getting nearly 1200 followers in a few months and having my cursed thoughts and thirst posting popping off arbitrarily lmao

One day one of my insightful posts will do the same but for now, ill embrace the cursed

Small life update.
My kid took part in the TaeKwonDo International Open Championship yesterday and walked away with a silver medal and a gold medal/world champion title for patterns 🙏

Last post is some of my recent commission work.
Pushing myself to finally start taking gpose commissions a few months back has been the best decision creatively because the ideas people come up with are so inspiring and really push me!

Some of my latest #commission work!!

I adore getting to work on other peoples characters and ideas so so much as I find it resets and revitalizes my own motivation!

・ #gposers ・ #gpose ・ #ffxivcommissions ・

Ignore me retweeting main account shit here.

Also irl update.

Currently waiting for my referral to the neurosurgeon to come in and see where we go from there

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀——Nostris fractis historia

⠀⠀⠀⠀ ・ #zenoswol ・

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀——Amatus⠀⠀
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⠀⠀・ #zenoswol ・ #birbseeds ・ #zenohika ・

Another good mail day thanks to a friend.
Surge foil edition Zenos, foils of Omega and JP Emet

The Sears Tower looking insanely creepy during a blackout, including the impression of a scary face topped by a crown of spikes. It looks like a giant humanoid evil robot or a demonic Minecraft creature.

"It's ok, honey. The Sears Tower experiencing a blackout won't hurt you!"

The Sears Tower experiencing a blackout:

Omega and Zenos are foils too ❤️
A close friend has grabbed me some of the other variants so i can have shiny shinryu’s too >:3

お楽しみに！