i have started the infiltration

girls who are squishy 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰

its not your tastes
i like it
:P

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i want to
no storage and it doesnt work on the emulator i have :(

Demeter, destroy this woman/silly

and all this dumb shit will haunt me forever
like i dont actually care about linguistics if i dont learn one which i cant fathom doing for whatever reason
uhggggggg
cant i have just grown up speaking something else
anything else

and i cant get myself to learn any language because i dont know how to, and i dont have the money to get online classes and i dont have the highschool to teach it to me for free, because i never got to highschool before going out of public, and i never learned any languages while i was cyber

and the fact i cant get the idea out of my head that ill never be able to learn another language makes this all worse
because i feel like ill never stop speaking this dumb colonial language that i dont particularly like
like the idea of my self is tainted by this dumb, uninteresting language forever

and i dont really have a need to because everyone else speaks it
and english is only interesting to a point
like yea cool, isolating germanic language, loss of grammatical gender, and θ ð as phonemes, but that feels like thats it
its not pretty, not descriptive, barely cool sounding

i need to be honest, i hate that i speak english natively
it is the language that everyone speaks because America and the EU are world powers (and the EU decided to use it for some god daym reason)
and i just speak it on pure chance
i statistically have a lower chance of learning a second language -

i think its because otherwise, my dialect feels extremly close to general american english with the average amount of AAVE influence which feels like, not good to me for some reason
so i cling onto the things that i feel like makes my normal non-silly dialect unique

I see "purity" as the equivalent of a blank canvas. A tiny bit good to look at, boring after 5 seconds, and meant to be painted over with something beautiful, personal, and emotional.

THIS SO TRU

counterpoint - pronounce everything as it was when english spelling was standardized/silly
but yea that would be cool methinks

lol

i think its because otherwise, my dialect feels extremly close to general american english with the average amount of AAVE influence which feels like, not good to me for some reason
so i cling onto the things that i feel like makes my normal non-silly dialect unique

yea, i do that .w.
reducing ng -> n is common in american informal speech, including my own
and i usually write specific things as n instead of ng to invoke an accent?
its like a point of pride for me for some reason
stuff like sayin, that, and darlin, doin, goin
and im not quite sure

1: reduce the name to a single syllable of choice
2: list your name, then your luvs in order of closeness (or in no order)
2: use a complex tone system to mark who is dating who or not (for names that are involved in complex systems)

bsky deleted all my notifications so now i cant likebomb everyone >:(
i can but it will just take a long time

i want to take the way that a bunch of people in online circles im in speaks sillylike
then take that
and put that into a set of sound changes from general american english
then take the resulting languge and evolve it further with the goal of it eventually gaining complex tones (like chinese)

parents being like actually kinda discriminitory
describing mamdani as making nyc go crazy or something and calling him "Islamic governor" at the same time
i highkey hate this :/

get back into languages,
try and learn a language,
all the documentation is confusing,
give up

meow

:3c

OK OK I may need to provide more context

my parents are super abusive and I unfortunately am no longer safe at home, if you saw my post this morning you'll know what I'm talking about. the whole "being dead bit" refers to how they'll purposefully drive me to sewer slide if the plan fails

good luck girl
hope everything goes well
*hug*

mew!

meowmeow

bwa