Posts by Artorius Frost
Starting a playthrough of Pragmata. Cat in space with Chat GPT daughter.
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Happy birth big guy
Just an update. Right now it's a bit of a struggle with the day to day. Sometimes I'm fine and then other times not. Last night was a not. Today is not great Funeral is on Friday. Yet another trip to South Dakota. Funny how I didn't go back for 20 years, and then three times in 6 months.
Fuck cancer.
Fuck you.
I miss you mom, you'll always be with me and I love you so much.
I'm still in shock. Not surprise. Just. Full on shock. Back in November, I had this same feeling. What's the purpose of living. What's the meaning of existence if all it brings is sadness. Once again, I'm visiting these same questions.
I went and visited because my dad texted that he wasn't sure if mom had a lot more time left. I'm glad I visited. Not so much for myself but because it provided comfort for my mom. The next few weeks she went downhill quickly. These last few days being the worst.
December came and went, I talked to her and my dad about every few days. This dread in my stomach every time seeing a text message pop up or hearing my phone. Then January and February came. Still, much of the same. In March, things took a big turn and she no longer could stay home safely.
Many medical complications took place, kidneys not working well enough, then liver. They finally could restart chemo but by then it was too much on her body. I visited on Thanksgiving, thinking it was going to be the last time seeing her. Hospice wad what was decided. Though from home first.
She went through surgery, and chemotherapy, and came out on the other side. We were told she beat it. That they'd have to watch of course but, at the time, almost all the cancer was taken out. We lived happily a bit longer. Then the news struck again. "It came back".
"Mom has cancer" was what I was told a few years ago. I still remember hearing those words and my gut sinking to the floor. Thoughts of "why?", "she didn't do anything to deserve this" and "it's not fair" stuck in my head. While all valid, that's unfortunately just fucking life.
She encouraged me to go for my dreams, and if I fell, she'd be there.
Work became my life and I didn't get to visit much. I'd call a lot, but I couldn't come visit for holidays anymore. Healthcare is like that. Stealing away all your time to care for others, often leaving you starved.
When I was a kid, she took me to school, attended every basketball game despite me being shit, took me to every soccer and softball practice and game. She took me to every music lesson and was always there to tell me how proud she was. She was my number 1 fan.
My mom had been battling cancer for the last few years and tonight she passed away. She fought so hard. I will not say she lost. She didn't lose the battle. She won, time and time again by living another day until cancer had to cheat. She meant the world to me.
I need somewhere to write my feelings - so please disregard if you only visit for the furry stuff.
CW - topic of death
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To thank all of you for your support I'm gonna open a new raffle!
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Ends on the 15th of april!
Good luck everyone!
Congrats Baz~ and thank you for the opportunity!
From my experience, they do not. Please do your best to take care of yourself. Keep moving forward one day at a time.
I've been there. Take a moment or more by yourself to decompress. Take a shower, get your favorite food. Sometimes things aren't "just right".
Gonna stream at noon PST (50 some odd minutes from now). Slept in, took a walk, going to get some food and coffee, then we'll start in.
Stream will be live at 8:30 pst (about 30 minutes after this posts). We'll be continuing Monster Hunter Stories 3 from where we left off last week.
Hope to see you there!
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Going to stream tonight in about 30 minutes. Took a hr walk after work and now we're making some food. See you then!
Sorry for the lack of gaming streams the past week. I ended up spending a lot of this last weekend resting because I've been so worn out. LIKELY will try to do a shorter stream tonight depending how I feel after work. Likely more Monster Hunter Stories 3. Will reply to this post if I do!
Innocent. Too innocent.