profiles in poetics: Denise Duhamel
“How do we honor our mothers after they have passed? The person, the legacy, the body, after death? This interview is not meant to address the failings of motherhood, but rather, as Denise Duhamel states, “maybe Pink Lady is about my look at the female body—its…
belonging is about being seen and chosen - not assigned. - esther perel
i also miss environments where communication is music. i miss playing music with friends. it’s a completely different level of expression and communication. like riding horses. you can talk horse or you cannot. you can play music with someone and instantly become friends.
there can be no hierarchy between humans. but what is not love is not love. it is this simple. and when you know what is not love you do not need to react nor participate.
i do think that it is entirely different traveling to places versus living there. especially when english is not the common language.
cultures are very different. i’m not so sure about portugal & intimacy. however i feel a very strong draw to the land and sea here. maybe the mukavetz’s were here
the evil witch mother torturing the children is an aquarius moon wound. I am no longer playing to this card, nor will i participate.
and my mother is protecting me.
walks with leo asleep on my chest belém ajuda
Balance connection and separateness: Perel notes that true intimacy thrives from closeness and "otherness" and individuality between 2 people. The ability to see & appreciate your partner's separate existence is risk and unpredictability, which are necessary for desire and eroticism to flourish.
Validation and self-worth: When a partner responds to this vulnerability with validation and understanding, it strengthens a person's sense of esteem. It shows them that their inner world is not only seen but also accepted, helping to transcend feelings of isolation - e p
esther perel : "Into-me-see": Perel defines modern intimacy as a deep, reciprocal exchange of feelings and thoughts, where each person allows the other to "see" into their innermost self
profiles in linguistics: Frankie Rollins (II)
“… We look at how we were raised, perfectionism, and the capitalist patriarchy of our environment through opposites. We encounter the absurdity of love and companionship. We find deep sorrow alongside deep celebration, and question “the mystery of…
leo is six months today - incredible ❤️
‘let us choose paints and mix them on the palette with no canvas before us to paint.
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let us play hide and seek with our consciousness of being alive.”
pessoa - the book of disquiet
cabo de roca, a favorite place 🕊️
was beautiful spreading a small pinch of sand of my mom. my body felt the grandness of it, but i’ve never been happier & felt more seen. even my fiddle teacher sees it, & she has known me since I was seven. this is the power of love in the face of shame.
‘shame has been called the master emotion because as it is internalized- all the other emotions are bound by shame.’ - john bradshaw
if all is well there could be enough time, but will have to see. better she okay, maybe go to the cliffs saturday if better but hope
we were planning to go to caba de roca to spread a little bit of my moms sand in the brilliant sun of the windy overlook. and then there were lillie’s and bella counting every where and instead we are at the vet. bella is not super sick but they are running blood work on her kidneys.
my tv just turned on by itself after i completed my website and now it is showing me the most beautiful places from all around the world in a google screen saver. leo is asleep nursing. my mom
today i wrote an interview of a book written about their mother nurse passing away in covid. at first i placed it aside but to all those i’ve written three in the ast two days and it is strength this week of my moms passing. the last question i wrote gave me goosebumps and i know, my mom is with me.
saint francis of assisi day is celebrated oct 4. one of my moms saints. i used for her prayer card & was the church of her funeral. her anniv is on the 16th. with leo there is such a soft tenderness now. i wish she was here but a feel her so warmly and it is love perhaps she always yearned to give.
would be so nice to play music with some old friends. 🥰
miss asia a little bit today. & fiddle
baby leo is the best, & i still must play, for my spirit
meditation check in, great .. i love meditation with tm teachers .. the effortlessness & kindness & softness. agrudev 🙏
bell hooks on positivity & resistance
katie & i were also beerpong champions of korea on this day in 2012, & happy full moon in mars.
& was the second time the mazda broke in 2021.
wishing for peaceful fiery dreams.
this day today is the day i won my court case in thailand. just two years ago today 🌻
profiles in poetics: Maria Garcia Teutsch (II)
“… In What She Saw in the Lotería Cards, we discuss the Loteria’s close historical origin to Tarot, Maria’s process and ritual, and the roots of her Mexican and Southern Gothic Heritage. Here we can see how syncretism works with her Mexican Catholic…
i will start my 30/40 tradition tomorrow - free this time. let’s see what will come. i need to speak with my mom. wish she was here
i wonder what leo should dress up as for his first halloween 🎃
