Merry Trans Day of Visibility from the most invisible transgender in the world! May my next TDoV be one where I'm fully open and out.

update 3 on me becoming a basic white girl: getting into BookTok and romantasy, just bought multiple of that type of book on Audible. Oh yeah also vanilla lattes sound really good now... 😭

Mostly toxic for me! But I figured it out eventually at least. Might have helped if I'd never discovered it though, I might have thought it was simultaneously less normal and less shameful to want to be a girl.

OHHHHH

ohhhhh

oh that poor woman. I quite desperately hope that she transitioned in 2003, or at least in 2011 after she reuploaded For a Girl to TGS...but I'm afraid that she never did.

I'd still legitimately love to do a podcast episode on For a Girl, it was one of my fave TG fics as a kid.

...yeah can you explain it to me?

Thank you! :D I believe in me too...kinda.

Thank you, that's really helpful! Framing it like that is a good way of doing it, because I know my trans elders were doing similar in much more hostile times. If they can do it, I can do it.

Thank you! Idk, they're just all extremely gorgeous hyper-fem cis women and I'm a 6'2 human-shaped blob.

But barring one, they've all been friendly and the woman that's done my last 2 laser sessions + is going to probably be my regular tech is also going to be the one doing my body so...eh.

okay so i just dropped money on bulk buying 10 sessions all at once. so I *have* to do it now lmao

okay genuinely how do i get over the fear of getting laser hair removal on my body done? it's not the pain at all, it's just showing my nude body to the gorgeous cisgender laser techs.

like...how am I meant to be okay with that? but also I have to start sometime I guess, might as well be now.

...I'm also bi? But okay, I guess I'm biphobic because I don't want to be seen as a man in a relationship.

Has to do with the fact that unlike a lesbian, she might be interested in me for my masculinity rather than my femininity. I.e she wants a feminine guy, not a trans woman.

okay so quick question that i think i know the answer to...

is it a bad idea to date a vaguely liberal but politically uninterested cis bisexual girl while in my first year of transition?

...yeah, I know the answer as well.

type of audio i'd LOVE to read as a script, i'm such a boykisser that i've become One Of Those Girls about two boys kissing each other lmao.

girl who namesearches "binnie" every few weeks (and gets surprised by how much kpop, dogs and penises there are) and wants to know what you thought.

nah rach is strong as heck from what i've seen, she could fuck you up for SURE

most guy thing to do of all time I fear. which is gender-affirming i guess but I simply could NOT. I can't even come out to my GP or my laser techs, let alone a nun.

addition number 3 to the Official "weird ass things that make me dysphoric and shouldn't" list:

Opening a letter "like a man". Just simply cannot pop open the seal most of the time, so I end up having to rip along the top or even tear the envelope.

I need to get these worms out of my brain ASAP...

Yeah in hindsight I probably should have just not said that! Deleting it now.

I'm 6'2 and have absolutely tiny boobs proportionately! Idk, it's not come up as an issue again, I think I just put my forearm in a silly position.

Oh I have! How do you get around it then ma'am?

Oh so do I, I was just finding that I ended up either slotting my forearm between my chest and tapping it against righty with each brush or putting it up at a crazy 90 degree angle.

oh im sure

Yeah! Idk, I feel like I'm being naive for not wanting to know the process, but also...it's a kinda weird and unnerving process! That doesn't mean I'm going to end up with my face falling off, I don't think that's ever happened to *anybody* as far as I'm aware.

okay so i watched an animated video of ffs and couldn't make it past the first 30 seconds. definitely reaffirming my policy that i want to know absolutely NOTHING about my surgery process. no story, no pictures and CERTAINLY no video. just going to sleep, getting hit with hammers and waking up.

trying this...i think this qualifies as an insane angle I fear

i'm getting the feeling that the answer is "you don't"

hey people with boobs, quick question...how do i brush my teeth without either putting my arm at an insane angle or smacking it against my chest constantly?

And it was NOT it being rounded up or me going up on tiptoes before, to be clear. I've always hated my height and actually got upset when I found that my adult height settled at about 6'3.5 on average.

Sure that's an evening measurement, when in theory you get shorter by about a cm compared to midday. But even still, that's 3-4cm shorter than I was at a similar time a few years ago. (2/2)