Screw moderation, I need to decenter food that’s the problem

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On the backslide

03/24 - Tuesday 🌱
-2493c
-2lbs

03/23 - Monday 📗
- 1803c
- 1.0lbs

ig the one good thing ab crying and eating all weekend is that i can hit my 3k cal goal super fast the next day at the gym 🙃

Happy (belated) birthday y'all!!

very crocs 🫰🏽

Reset the binge counter, boys

Damn, yea yknow that does fit the m.o. 🥲 i'm sorry

How'd you get out of the cycle?

A habit, for sure. And that can be just as harmful. I hope you have a good session :)

I get tht. Like suddenly the fog has been lifted. Until you have to do again. And again, even sooner than the last.

i have whatever that is. trauma induced memory loss + fawning??

What do u call the type of trauma where u forget the inciting event(s) as soon as anything remotely positive occurs, and latch onto that, but u never shake that ominous feeling, so ur always vaguely anxious under a veneer of content, until another event happens, and the veil is violently ripped off?

day drinking alone after declining to go out and offering to do errands like getting out plane tickets, only to find out my credits expired and we might not be able to afford to go now

I feel like such a failure. So many of my current issues revolve around my lack of boundaries growing up and, consequently, my eating.

I am becoming my mother, HELP

I don't want to vent to my partner bc he has a tournament today and ik what it's like to have tht weight on u before an event but im visibly pissed off and tht already bothers him i feel so bad but i cant shove it down

I am more fully awake and filled with anger and resentment fuuucckkkk

I don't want to go to dnd today but i dont want to stay home w roommates either. Being home with them makes me feel worse but i want to veg. Whole vacation from one job and i've just been puttering around, working, and cleaning. Frustrating

Thank you 🫂🫠

Headphones died at the beginning of my workout
Came home to find my backup earbuds, just to realize they were in my water bottle pocket. Just gonna stay home, rest day early.

Still gonna stick with my planned 48hr fast go to Saturday morning, so hopefully the desire to depression binge won't strike, and the ever reliable (but rare) anger fasting will save the day

Literally as in i stepped in my roommates' cat's 💩 as soon as i walked in the door. Right after getting home from being rejected from what seemed like a hopeful l0an c0ns9l1dati0n application. Like not even 20 min after i got a rejection notice.

And i gained basically a whole pound.

03/18 - Wednesday 🌵
- 1494c
+ 0.9lbs

Havin a real shit one today fellas........

how it feels being on edsky with ppl doing everything from pursuing psychology degrees to smoking crack but we're all united by this fuckass illness

Damn me and everybody on the TL overstimulated and staying indoors today huh? rip outdoor plans 👊🏾😔

Gonna hope this is due to not 💩 for 2 days and that a couple of docusates will help :(