damn as usual homegirl is coming for me.
It's okay this year is my year of raising the bar!! Since last year was me establishing bare minimum quality of life standards for myself for the first time lol.
Incredible food for thought video.
"It's not my job to make them 'more capable' and do more."
"He does not get time to grieve one thing before the next thing is taken... and through all of it, he keeps getting up. He keeps putting on the suit."
INJECT IT
@badmamiiiiii i have more conversations in my head that in real life
same
Post canon Arcane Herald Viktor body mods but in the sense that he is welding more metal onto himself and allowing his body to accept the foreign objects so he can rebuild himself with his own hands and his own terms now
this thing kinda evil cuz I got addicted to wacom style pens, leading to me buying a Cintiq 16... but I've heard the patent expired and newer other brand stuff uses a similar mechanism these days.
My first tablet was the Wacom Bamboo Craft Fun and it only finally stopped working for me last year when I had brought it to work to do occasional complex photoshops. Luckily my job just ordered me a new bamboo when it broke since they didn't realize I had brought a tool from home lol.
ooh do you have a link to or the name of this podcast? I'm interested to listen.
Man it's been forever since I watched and I didn't think about it this way and I been meaning to rewatch Wall-e lfggg
def gotta add Wall-e to my little list of movies to watch when I'm feeling a type of way 😌
"He doesn't shut down, he doesn't turn bitter. Instead he builds a complete inner life out of the fragments of other people's discarded things." "He is collecting moments of joy from the ruins"
"He has built a map of love that he has never actually experienced"
Timing on this vid release is crazyyy. I love not being delulu and reality-maxxing touching grass wooooo
Been working on this in the last 3 years and I've learned a lot! Made hella progress especially after my unintentional breakthrough 1 year ago.
"The less-defined your sense of self, the more vulnerable you are to the judgements and the reactions of others. This can make socializing exhausting and stressful.
Self-awareness fosters resilience and in the end, better outcomes.
Other people may understand aspects of us better than we do."
Fav bit from the vid: "I want you to be able to live the rest of your life through a different lens. I want you to be able to have a different experience with your life that is not characterized by what happened to you, but by you deciding what's next for you."
I been making good progress on this lately instead of ruminating on the same familiar narratives in my head. It's high time for me to vault the lore and live differently because I have healed enough and not in a place physically where I need to live like I'm actively suffering from my lore anymore.
I love this. Been listening to acloudyskye a lot lately *^*
www.youtube.com/watch?v=nn-1...
It's been a complex process for me to both build self-trust in my opinion/capabilities/intuition while also still interrogating my default thought patterns/self-sabotaging tendencies until I could move past them because those things were not ever me, they were learned from my abuser(mom)
another banger from the Sisyphus 55 channel
"Fear of: responsibility, failure, disappointment, and mortality. Instead they 'live' or 'exist' with each day experienced as a dissociated blur leading to nothing in particular."
www.youtube.com/watch?v=RD5L...
(I'm kinda over that genre of man now that I've encountered more actual ones in the wild)
actually this doesn't explain nor excuse the Cop/police hyperfixation autism istg I've had to sit through every cop tv show ever largely against my will. Only actually entertaining one was Criminal Minds but that's largely due to me having an interest in Matthew Grey Gubler at one point.
Like the only reason besides her being a shitty person/narcissist I can think of is I've heard my grandfather was a cop but like... that doesn't make it a particularly good reason lol.
I have an aunt working in construction, another one married idk what her job and an uncle none else wannabe cops
lol @ my mom
ACAB: especially my mom but luckily she never successfully got a full time cop job
TEXT: Wharton reminds us that “a tragedy with a happy ending” is what a child wants before sleep—the comfort that all is well. But as long as we require that reassurance, we remain in what she calls a “nursery-world.” Growth, she argues, comes not from comfort, but from confronting reality—fully, honestly, and without illusion. That insight feels especially urgent now. This moment does not call for reassurance. It calls for clear-eyed reckoning. It calls for a willingness to move beyond the caretaking of comforting stories and toward the harder work of responsibility and action. Because the question before us is not whether everything will be alright. It is whether we are willing to face what is, abandon what merely comforts, and do the work required to make something better. There is no one coming to save us—except ourselves.
This is part of someone's longer post on FB that particularly resonated with me.
For your feeds and enjoyment: a mid-90s Capcom logo animation I'd never seen before. Plays during the installation program for PC DOS Mega Man X (1995).
Ah… I get it now. There’s like a palpable weight of responsibility if you’re mentally clocked in the whole time from when you’re off work to going to bed. But I’ve delayed it long enough it’s kinda refreshing to have the option to be this functional at least. (Now that I’m over the discomfort phase)
Been getting this reminder from a couple different of my main youtube channels so while not novel, definitely still appreciate and need to hear this stuff as much as possible.
www.youtube.com/watch?v=L4A4...
wait no I forgot my mortal enemy is my mom lol. Second worst then
default human psychology? more like my worst enemy
