Im halfway through with my 30day workout challenge im feeling strong

Nothing is more miserable than working out after buying clothes that don’t fit

I ate a disgusting amount of rice today

What do u do if ur sibling keeps telling u all the disordered things they do on the daily like its the ed olympics, and idk if he knows it’s disordered behavior or not but no one is alarmed except me i feel crazy.. like 30kg down in 4 months isn’t normal and neither is bragging about it!! Right?

Thank you!! I didn’t have a pottery class in hs sounds v fun to get a class. But this i air dry clay cuz its the cheapest option, u might wanna look into that :)

The first pic is the inspo not finished product i forgot oops

Yall look what i made
WITH MY BARE HANDS!! +some tools

Sometimes i wish i can starve enough to stop my period

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My uni bag is coming today

Right!! I usually aim at half the healthy amount bcuz I dont want to go to the bathroom every five minutes

Being gluten free is not for the week, i only have 2 meals that i can do rn my family’s kitchen is full of gluten 🙂

Makes starving easier ngl

I haven’t weighed myself in a month and i was literally shaking just to end maintaining 🥲

Anxious that I won't wake up to the alarm cuz I just spent an hour checking everything over and over again, so then I don't sleep cuz I'm anxious like crazy then it just gets worse.

I get bad anxiety during exams cuz what if I set the wrong time? What if I studied the wrong subject? What if I went to the wrong exam room? So I get stuck in a loop of checking my schedule and checking the time and checking if I set the right alarm and checking if its Am or Pm and then I get extra-

To get scared when going in public? Not social anxiety thats not new lol, but like i have to tab myself frantically to check if all my things are w me or if i accidentally dropped something esp w my phone. Anyways it’s looking like ocd but im not a doctor so 🤷

Oh also another potentially ocd thing-

To go through that spiral again 10y later it feels like it will never end. I even started to find new ways to self soothe, like rn im gonna get a little notebook to put all my passwords in fully knowing that ill just be anxious that someone might see it and use it. I also strangely started—

I alr contacted authorities when i got blackmailed so there’s not much i can do after that, i was looking into ocd lately and it seems similar to whatever tf this is. The worst thing is im not new to the “im being watched” paranoia i used to have that alot in my early teen years, so its not fun—

Opening my folders on my pc cuz whar if i accidentally click an app thats gonna take all my data again? What if i’m being watched this entire time? What if someone gonna out me? What if i get kicked out of uni for this? What if i lose everything and its my fault? What if i can do something but idk—

Huge vent !!

I was hacked a year ago and it has given me really bad anxiety and sometimes paranoia. Even though i took back everything and have 2fa on everything i care about, i still have to do some self soothing things to keep the anxiety away, i randomly change my passwords, i get scared when—

Why does it feel so embarrassing to get into make up at my big age 🫣

Yesterday i said i wont eat in the morning, but i alr ate breakfast and lunch so no dinner cuz why did i eat all that :I

And its my first day of my period

So i just went back home w my parents and the house is flooded cuz pipe broke 2 days ago when no one was home and i had to carry a lot of furniture away from the water and im crying not bcuz of that but bcuz my dad is sleeping on my pillow and i have to sleep in jeans cuz i only had one pj pants

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Ive seen all of my irl thinspo in the same week

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I spent the entire day playing s4tisfact0ry and forgot about my 10k steps goal, I have 2h to walk 10k steps

I'm out of most foods that I can eat so I'm gonna fast the entire day hehe

I have control over what i eat
I have control over what i eat
I have control over what i eat
I have control over what i eat
I have control over what i eat
I have control over what i eat

My credentials are:

I got most of my accounts hacked last year cuz i didn’t use 2FA on my emails and my passwords were mostly the same so when one was in a data breach most of my accounts were hacked lol

Also if u r being blackmailed cuz someone got your passwords, contact authorities!!

Look just make sure u got your bases covered, like change your gov and bank passwords, make sure you have 2FA on where you most need it, like your emails and bank & gov accounts.. and nothing else really matters after that,, also dont fall for random blackmailing emails they almost never do

I started fasting again and im feeling very brittle-?? Like i feel my muscles being weak af and im extremely confused