I’m watching someone who I know in my heart is a grifter and user doing exactly that. They’ve made repeated attempts to farm drama and step on people around them to get attention and network their way up.
Is this considered morbid curiosity?
Taylsor looking up in surprise at what is presumably a coin tower with the shadow of it thrown across his face. The background is of an arcade.
How it feels to get a huge tower in Raccoin
Artwork depicting Frisky being taught how to make a specific beverage by Nero, while Tiefling goofs off building a tower of plates to the side.
Remember that signup for the Doomers art? I'm still working on getting it made! We started with Nero, @friskytempest.bsky.social, and @thievingtiefling.bsky.social.
Art by Sam vgen.co/sambot_01
Absolutely tragic.
It whispers to you in quiet places, like the green goblin mask or something, except it's cutesy and stuff.
Yakno just to 'meet people'
Yeah that was a crazy interaction. New psych is very good to me tho, she's really cool, listens, really cares about getting the best outcome for me.
So true!
My bluesky engagement strategy
Little update, had two appointments with a new psychiatrist, she is much nicer and I feel heard.
She's exploring a few different potential diagnoses, but does feel pretty confident that I'm at least mildly autistic with a lot of masking going on. Yippee, I think?
I find it fascinating that the rich are so out of touch and delusional that they can't understand why people would burn down their place of work. They apparently have 0 clue how financially desperate the average person is right now.
Income taxes shouldn’t exist, there are better, more equitable tax structures that are far more efficient and enforceable. Like corporate revenue taxes.
So you’re very valid to dislike having to file.
If you haven’t done it yet, file your taxes. Also, don’t forget you can treat content creation as a small business.
That doesn’t mean you get to expense everything you want, get a professional to help you file if you don’t know how. Running a little late for that tho…
You also have the option of selling your soul and doing literally ANYTHING for attention, but I can’t recommend that. Also I’m not salty that it’s the reality, I’m salty, however, that people keep saying it’s luck when it really usually isn’t these days. Maybe it used to be. Not now.
But ultimately, whether you get a real opportunity as an entertainer is quite likely going to be a question of who you know, how much money you can afford to spend on it, and a little bit of good luck.
Favoritism and social ladder climbing is rewarded most. Hard work is always needed, but it alone is unlikely to get you anywhere. You can’t really control if someone big decides to pick you. You can influence who you hang around, to some extent.
When I got into this space a lot of people blamed luck for not getting their chance “yet.” Well I’ve been around for a bit now and I regret to inform you that it’s a lot of other things, some you can help, lots you can’t, and a dash of luck.
PSA for everyone who sells something, literally or metaphorically, online.
#VTuber
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So Elgato's pushing their Wave Link 3 now and their only option for noise cancellation, Voice Focus, is AI slop and works like shit. It will, for no particular reason, boost your gain and fuck up your voice a lil. That, and/or do virtually nothing.
Thanks for the slopware I guess. Woo, more slop...
I feel like this little piece of cursed art @erismothfire.bsky.social made for me really embodies how that made me feel.
Yeah, I'm just moving to a new one 😔
Yeah I was saying how tough it is for me to be at work and he was like "Yeah but have you tried socializing more? Maybe tinder?" like bro are you listening that's my problem, it's too much, I don't want to be around people as much as I am 😭
So my new Psychiatrist today basically told me to just be normal instead. Anyway I'm looking for a new doctor.
Following up on this, I realized I'm a LOT happier working remotely, and I don't feel the anxiety/stress building like I normally do that leads to burnouts. So I asked my bosses (I have a few) about how to request going mostly remote. They were super understanding and are helping me navigate it now.
Thanks Kero! I’m just taking it one step at a time, already talking to a psych so it’s just gonna be a process. But yeah I could never have expected it’d lead me here, but I’m thankful!
It's not that I don't care, I just can't tell or show you I do. So, to all of you, thank you, for being my friend, for understanding, for putting up with me at times, and for supporting me throughout all of this. I couldn't be more thankful.
That's the end of the thread, thanks for reading 💜
I'm not sure what I did to deserve such kind and loving people in my life. But I do love you all, even if I struggle to express it. Even the ones I don't talk to a lot, I think about far more people than I actually have the energy to talk to, and I spend that energy I've got every single day trying.
My friends and community have supported me every step of the way on this journey I've been on since starting VTubing. You'd think it would've been about something else, but it's been about self-discovery more than anything else.
I've already spent nearly 30 trying to find a way to be happy, to want to be here tomorrow, and now I know what it is. So I'm gonna get it one way or another. Now to get to the actual point of this thread, the reason I wrote it, and what I think you should take away from this.
I feel very strongly that I can't continue like I did for the last few years for the rest of my life, something would have to change or I wouldn't be able to go on living like that. It feels dramatic, but knowing what this feels like now, I can't do it for 30 more years.