dear Tamsyn Muir, if you're listening, please have Gideon use the term "nip nops" in Alecto. Thank you.

@zendemian.bsky.social

literally Jews

was nobody going to tell me how Locked Tomb-coded Sleep Token is???? I can hardly pick a song to put on my "we do bones m*fer" playlist.

thanks to @zendemian.bsky.social for understanding his wife.

Women want me. Fish fear me. Fish want me. Women fear me. Women are fish, fish are fish. Phylogenetically, all vertebrates are fish.

I just laughed so hard it woke harry

The cognitive dissonance of getting up every morning and making coffee and walking the dog and going to meetings and answering emails and wondering what to make for dinner while there is a real live actual coup d’etat happening is BONKERS

But now I have to brush up on coping strategies/interventions for PTSD. I refuse to let something like that happen again. With the gutting of US health institutions and credibility, I foresee a minefield of triggers in my future. I owe it to my loved ones and patients to fix it. I owe it to myself.

Seeing me have this obvious emotional reaction was not something they expected. I may be embarrassed, but they were just worried about me. Ultimately, I compartmentalized once again and succeeded in helping the patient, which is the most important thing here. I'm glad I was able to do that.

Again, I didn't do anything with consequences, except maybe my coworkers thinking I'm dramatic. But that's the thing. They didn't. Because I'm not. I'm known for my patience, my ability to push through difficulties and be proactive and creative to achieve a goal.

And then I almost quit. Instead I took about two minutes to go have a breakdown and came back to work, got some help, and got it done. Patient thanked me. But I was still very much not okay, physically or mentally. I feel better now, but I am ashamed at how out of control I felt, however briefly.

Basically-- a COVID patient a) didn't believe in COVID and b) had trouble handling getting bloodwork done. I was unsuccessful. I told them we would figure it out, and then I left the room and was Not Okay. I was immediately crying. I told the PA the patient simply would not be getting bloodwork.

I thought I understood PTSD given that I have CPTSD. I was wrong. I have only ever experienced something akin to this once, but it was more a reminder of COVID making me anxious, not what I felt this week. Like, I knew I didn't have PTSD. And I didn't until I was a COVID nurse within 3 miles of NYC.

cw: discussion of trauma, COVID. no graphic or medical descriptions.

I had my first COVID PTSD flashback at work this week. I severely overreacted after the fact (away from patients), although thankfully that just means emotional expression of distress and not, like, actions with consequences.

(GIANT KAIJU EMERGES IN THE ATLANTIC OCEAN) ugh can we not? sorta got a lot going on rn

Following the CDC's removal of critical health data and the potential approval of RFK Jr. as Health Secretary, it is crucial to access accurate health information from independent sources such as the WHO, Mayo Clinic, Johns Hopkins University, and peer-reviewed journals.

I’ve received word from multiple FAA employees and partners that they’ve been directed to halt all comms. Seems like an admission of guilt.

5 ways to celebrate #BlackHistoryMonth (cause the fed govt doesn’t run your house)

1. Find out what Sojourner Truth REALLY said
2. Buy a Black horror, scifi or fantasy book
3. Listen to “Naima” by John Coltrane
4. Send the victims of the LA fires in Altadena a few coins
5. Get a library card

going from a "healthcare politics and policy" class to a "promoting and preserving health in a diverse society" class given that American health data is currently gutted and paused is... not how I wanted to be doing grad school.

at Michaels today, a young lady came up to me and said "you look like a professional, can I ask you a question?" because I still have customer service face. (it was sweet, I told her about Ravelry)

multi colored yarn crocheted in a large circle. there are shadows on it from the person taking the photo.

what to do with all this random worsted weight yarn in my stash? a basket to hold projects, of course!

euphoric photo of dolphins jumping under a rainbow

this is how it feels to reach 30 MILLION users!!!

@theyshelbyking.bsky.social @chakazard.bsky.social

everything reminds me of him*

*Jonathan Sims from the Magnus Archives

#healthgoth

Coffee tariffs are a great excuse for Panera to bring back the cardiac arrest lemonade tho

WOOF does The Pitt hit hard in the COVID nursing PTSD. Whoever they consulted with was in the thick of it. I often ran the COVID cabana, which was in our empty pediatric area.

I mean, yes. But also, Reddit's specialized forums (especially /r/medicine) have been a good source for info when governmental ones have let me down (aka during 2020-2021)

although I do indeed love compliments~