Happy birthday! 🎉

you were into jackass?? that explains so much

being a hater is always valid

every single door in my neighbour's apartment needs to be greased and it drives me up the wall that i can hear it

maybe you need to start a new wip

i haven't encountered a help page or FAQ that actually did what it was supposed to in years. it's wild.

health anxiety is so fucking draining

be careful, you'll give them joint pains if you do it too hard

it never ceases to amaze me how many different stories people have in them. the same ship, the same setting, the same premise, and yet the stories and the tone is so wildly different.

somehow always shocked that it takes more than half an hour to read 50k

watching a show like heated rivalry while not being attracted to a single one of the actors is a wild experience — an experience i'm not sure i've had before

i can't engage with pitt commentary without feeling absolutely insane. i sincerely hope these people are amarter offline

tumblr thinks i'm a buddie shipper :(

this is just wank, but i find it lowkey concerning to watch a piece of media with clear themes of abuse, then going online to see what other people thought, only to see no one fucking got it. the abuse is right there and no one fucking saw it

i cannot overstate how much feedback means to fic writers. i got some nice tags on a tumblr post today and i've added a whole page to the wip i was talking about because of it

the absolute worst. wasted potential

i think i can admit fandom spaces terrify me

even when i want to join them

BIG same. never not thinking about bdsm

being asked if i'm married or have kids always shakes me to my core

i want to write about it and fix it, but canon keeps making things worse and i simply cannot imagine a way out of it, so i'm sort of just anxiously waiting to see wtf they're gonna do on the show, to turn things around.

i regret getting back into 911 a little bit. s9 has been so boring, but now it's a little *too* exciting for me. exciting might be the wrong word. a lot is happening and i find it difficult to watch buck be let down by every person in his life yet again.

a big challenge for me lately is the fact that the characters i write about are my age. especially when those characters are described as old, i have to remind myself that they probably wore skinny jeans in the early 2010s and know all the words to "wherever you will go" just like i do

i can't begin to describe how scary it is to wake up at 3 in the morning and not feel sleepy. i haven't slept well in months. it shouldn't be possible for me to not feel sleepy at any time, let alone at 3 in the morning

insomnia has got to be one of the scariest things i've experienced. it's crazy that the human body can decide to just not sleep. and when you tell people, they go, "oh, i have trouble falling asleep sometimes" as if that remotely compares to the existential horror of insomnia

i need to make a noise complaint about my neighbour (again). i know i'm in the right, but i feel like such an asshole. i haven't slept in two days because of him, but i still feel like i'm the one who is being unreasonable

i need him to yell at someone. and a spinoff show, but i need the yelling first

i need him carnally

LOU FERRIGNO JR ON THE PITT

since it's a relatively new endeavor, i decided to number my bucktommy ideas/wips. i'm up to 34 :) i haven't decided if numbering them makes me feel good or bad yet

it's been spring for about 20 seconds and my brain is already going we should spring clean 👀 as if my depressed ass can even handle a normal clean