CASSIOPEIA
Meanwhile, a strangerâs grandma spoons cold
butterscotch pudding to her lips beside your own grandma.
They prefer custard but wonât complain to the nurses.
Revolutions happen elsewhere. The once belovedâs face
becomes unfamiliar, the moustache greasier, and it is the least
you could have hoped for, but it doesnât satisfy.
Your brother is doing well because you have adjusted
your definition of âwell.â He wakes sober in a house
Of sober men. They eat dry toast, and he drives to the tiny
Cape Cod airport to wave his arms around and drag
cigarettes, the weight of himself, and duffel bags
filled with souvenir driftwood and bathing suits
along the tarmac all day. The Vineyard people offer
pinched smiles to his dropped Râs and the desire to feel
another, very particular way plays beneath each
moment like Muzak. He resists. How noble,
to resist. How unlike the gods. Meanwhile, the mortals
are fasting. Your sister listens to the same screech
on repeat and walks along the White River, seeing
only the stones beneath the low, clear water, surprised
by its sting when she kneels and leans to press
her face against their shine. She has not cut her thighs
in weeks. And you go on not calling your brother
or grandmother, crying each time you fold clothes.
Elsewhere, sickness spreading is one way bodies
communicate. Your mother sends a card
with some money in it, says her husband is dying
so slowly he seems fine. You make the same corn salad
for a different set of dinner guests, put on Nebraska
one more time. Meanwhile, the constellations. Cassiopeia
hanging upside down from her throne and you on Earth
just gawking, wondering what kind of person you are,
and if youâd be the one to open up your arms
when sheâs no longer able to hold on.
âCaylin Capra-Thomas
âYour brother is doing well because you have adjusted/your definition of âwell.â He wakes sober in a house//Of sober men. They eat dry toast, and he drives to the tiny/Cape Cod airport to wave his arms around and drag//cigarettesâ â @caylinct.bsky.social,
âCassiopeiaâ @newenglandreview.bsky.social