i need to rewatch hellsing ultimate because i feel like going insane about integra for a week will fix me

partially unrelated to lrp but now i have to do advanced investigation to discern THE deathcab for cutie solavellan song… watch this space bc it’s going to be Perfect

a tweet from @/ThefirstJonk on 2/19/25 that reads: "Oh so no death cab for ugly? Ugly has to walk?"

got a much needed long laugh from this

sure ig
#dragonage #solas #solavellan #elessarlavellan #art

a whole year. goddamn. miss you, dumbass.

Before Veilguard and what we now know, I imagined what Solas might have looked like growing up.
#Solas #Fen'Harel #dragonage

“i am a passive observer of life. i have no place among others. i am an outcast. i am inherently unloveable. i have nothing to offer”
monthly occurrence that makes my thoughts bad
“ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhh”

me: i don’t want to do this thing anymore i want it to be done 😭
mrs harellan: it’ll be done once you do it!

i can’t argue with the logic but it’s helpful in the WRONG DIRECTION

A snippet of dialogue that reads: "Ugh, don’t tell me anything else. I don't want to know. Do you know how insane it is that we're even talking about this? I should be losing my mind. I should be invoking the name of every Creator and praying for the return of your wits." Her fingers twitch as if to make a gesture for their gods but remains undecided on which one to entreat. "…But, if I were curious… how generously would you describe proportions?" "I’m not doing that." "Well, how else am I going to find out?" "Why do you want to know?!" Mahariel throws her hands up. "This is quite possibly the greatest historical find of the People to date! All of the legends we were raised on and you have the chance to ferret out which ones were true." "And you think the size of his cock is one worth preserving, do you?" "Arguably more than any of the others, yes."

my editor (me) is a loser who makes me cut the funniest parts of my fics because they “don’t suit the narrative tone” or whatever 😒

Solas is my comfort character rn

sorry what did you say i was looking at his waist

WAIST WAIST WAIST WAIST WA— the tranquilliser dart hits me in the neck

there is a special spot reserved in the Whatever The Next Good Place Is for people who manage to make you laugh while you’re crying and i am privileged to know so many of them

I’m doing awful things to Solas in my drafts, in case that wasn’t clear 👍

“he would not fucking say that”
skill issue. watch me contort his character through intense psychological suffering to prime and perfect the conditions under which he, would, in fact, say that 😌

you should see what’s happening four paragraphs down 😰

A snippet of writing that reads: “Solas lets her sit with the realisation when it comes, the faintest smile curling his lips. Above them, his eyes track the way understanding settles over her with the intensity she has come to expect; the watchful way he prepares for the outcome, forged from his careful, patient machinations. She could be wrong, and handily embarrass herself, but while her insides twist with a reawakened ache, she watches him in turn for some sign that she is not mistaken. She anchors herself in him, his reaction to hers. The patience she thought divinely endless has ebbed and he watches her now like a hunter in tall grass. With every passing moment she can feel his desperation that she pick up the trail he has laid at her feet. Not even that, he is beckoning her down the path, impatient with every breath that passes between them unanswered.”

mood took a dip. then a peak. then a dip. so i wrote through it like the big [citation needed] that i am (through spite. spite writing. spiting) yes. through spite, and solavellan, all things are possible 🙏 🥚

her little leggies and her happy lil tucked paws are sending me into orbit

that is the happiest cat i have ever seen i am inconsolable

I present the most cozy commission to work on 🥹I’ve said this a thousand times while working on this but it was so lovely to work on something that wasn’t angsty and forlorn esp for solavellan ❤️‍🔥 #solavellan #dragonagefanart

"A Dread Wolf might choose an unremarkable appearance—for example, a wanderer who knows a lot about people and their souls."
Solas Fen'Harel. Or rather, young Solas. #Solas #dragonage #dragon_age #fenharel

how has it been a year. fucking hell i miss him

oh good the easter bank holiday is the year anniversary of the worst day so at least i can be miserable at home instead of at work haha

won’t take that long bestie we’ll get you there 🫡 as long as u don’t mind speedrunning emotional damage and feeling the entire spectrum of human emotion in like a week

i just met him and I’m. i am. I’m. yeah. 🫠

Pride and Defiance - Chapter 18 - modestharellan - Dragon Age - All Media Types [Archive of Our Own] An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

I’m really bad at self promo but i am going to Try so…
do u want pre-canon solavellan au set during the time of elven Halam’shiral with emerald knights and a cranky dread wolf, ft. Felassan The Constantly Exasperated? if you answered yes, then Read My Fic (Please)
archiveofourown.org/works/740097...

probably should. she ignores me when i tell her to get down anyway :/

just because there aren’t any legends telling you NOT to ride the Dread Wolf doesn’t mean you SHOULD, Erys

hits to comment ratio, you are my enemy

oh picture of erys that i keep in my pocket at all times save me with your big green eyes and off-putting but tragically relatable taste in men