also ano ive been really down recently so I wanted to reassure yous that my disappearance isnt anything bad

but you can add me on finch ( my freind code is 34AQ76E1L7 ) because ill still be active there <3

my theory is that my attention span, and productivity has decreased, while my anxiety has increased with increased social media usage

so I expect the effects to reverse during this experiment

hii guys,

im wanting to try a small experiment on myself.
so im going to cut out social media (only keeping calls and text) for a little and track how it effects me.

so I wont be on for a little

but I will post my results

feeling: doomed by the narrative 🫠

ok so i managed to sleep despite all the bs upstairs, feeling a bit better, ive eaten too, I need to study but im still tired :/

honestly as temping as it is, I defos cant, they get so many noise complaints and the police out all the time they were told theyd lose the hosue if there was another police visit 🫠 and as bad as they are i couldnt do that to them, thats too far

very possibly, I know they were alcoholics. but idk if alc was the only problem

update 4:

more clapping, singing, running, whooping, shouting

im so tired ive not slept, ive been cursed with the ill fate of being poor and chronically unwell, so I shall never know peace.
my senses are to continuesly be fried and my brain is to process it and keep me in this anxious state

update 3:

singing hymns and then hoovered again

update 2:

they then moved around furniture, danced and are now hoovering and scream-laughing

honestly theyve been like this since we moved here in 2016, I fear they may be the og inspo 💀

update:

they are now screaming, shouting and running around above my head. while blaring music and babies cry 🫠

a guy in knew once said "do you live through the looking glass" after saying smthn my neighbours had done, and I think that accurately describes it

are .... are my neighbours .... playing trumpets .... multiple .... all out of tune .... what the fuck ??

i mean obviously I dont want to have to put in my id anyway, like its a privacy issue

but secondly they only take credit cards or drivers licenses, not passports or provisional drivers licenses. and Im too poor for those 2, so now im stuck not being able to update or download any apps :/

i have a Samsung phone at least, but everyone swore to me that ipads where better than tablets, so I fell for that one ig lol

its ios 26.4.1 :/

if yous have an apple product, whatever you do, dont update it

might need a moment to get over that

ok I finished it and omg its so disturbing

wait is it flats that have been combined together?

scranned a chicken bake and the new chicken roll, both bangin, so sleepy and bloated now

watching that trust me doc on the flds cult, and its kinda off topic but how fucking big is that house ?? did that used to be a school or large care home?? how did u get a house that big? and can I get one?

I put it on the hardest chess bot and I cant beat it .... like yeah duh

JWs are even treated different in the medical system bcs doctors know they will reject treatments and let themselfs die. but to them it can still come across as a rejection from the big bad outside world

but really if u want to get these people out the cult you need to help them think independently

exactly! and the outer world cant help but get angry at them because what they are doing is annoying and socially unacceptable, and it often comes across as we are better than you.

but it would be nieve to assume that the leaders who made these rules didnt know that would happen

on the old ft app, if we were on but I went onto a different app my camera turned off, but discord it stays on

which means I came off and then unmasked my pain a bit and let myself make the faces I needed to, and he went "oh darling are you ok?" ..... i was like oh yeah ... forgot you could see me

oh thats so cool, thats a good goal

exactly! and yeah I actually prefer the word order I think it makes more sense, like beginning being things like chan eil or tha or the verb makes sm more sense, like that is what I need to know first.

also for it to be person then description makes sm more sense.

but spelling is sooo hard

oh yeah I seen the music one, id kinda given it a go but I cant seem to ever figure out how to read music , id tried when u was younger too, but I just dont get it lol