i have been killing myself in my head over the same thing for weeks now and i have barely even beeen able to talk to anyone privately about it omfg just kill me already

:seal:

i keep typing up paragraphs about [thing] and then deleting them because it sounds stupid. WHATEVER

jesus christ

no literally i see people getting dogpiled for it all the time like what happened to common sense

csa / i just really don't like fujos sorry i was groomed by them and it's a very sore point for me. even as a 14 yr old in 2012 before the discourse was a thing i thought they were weird

imagine if cis people were like trans fetish p/rn helped me embrace my own sexuality. that's how fujoshis sound when they say fetishizing gay men is actually radical kweer praxis or whatever. btw i don't think all BL is inherently fetishistic -- far from it in fact but this particular argument sucks

i will be such a good boyfriend but first i need to stop being a pussy

YEAH he was just a year old when i got him...

thinking about how ralf is turning 9 this year makes me so sad i know that's not that old for a cat but i want him to live forever

like for instance i'm an introject of a japanese character and i can't control that but that isn't a free pass to go by his name or claim that i am japanese. come on guys

idk who needs to hear this but while an alter may present a certain way in headspace for various reasons that is not an excuse to claim experiences that are not yours e.g. having a transfem alter while being TME or an alter that is japanese while being white

if i shared my thoughts on the yume/selfshipping community as a whole i would be executed

it's really bad this morning and it's making work difficult WHO ELSE CHEERED!!

i keep getting hit with random waves of paranoia and feeling like i'm being watched let's all just die

it is...

TYSM...

ty jay ;__;

i also really need to see a new dentist l;ike ASAP so this is perfect timing

why do THINGS keep happening to me

yeah idk why this has to be so difficult/expensive... ty though

we are having a REALLY hard time finding a place that will reevaluate me for autism for OPWDD and it's stressing us out so bad my mom used the fuck word (she usually never does this ever)

wahhh ty vec ;__;

thnak you robin it does help ;__;

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thank you demi TT__TT <3

i've always known my like *points at general face area* isn't the most Conventionally Attractive ever but what if it's worse than i thought and i'm really disgustingly ugly and unlovable. what if what if what if

the one thing that scares me is that my last ex, upon meeting me irl, suddenly realized he wasn't attracted to me and it;s like. what if that happens again. am i really that ugly LMAO

why is my mom like this

+ she knows i don't like talking to him directly because he hates me and i'm scared of him