This place is kinda dead, but anyway.
Guh, i cant be angry at him just, not spending time with me (well by that I mean playing something or just sit together), but at same time seeing him casually play roblox even if said i wanna spend more time with him is making me feel like i am not doing enough.

Well i gonna end my ted talk here, thanks if anyone actually reading this and still supports me, i still very confused about many stuff, but i am gonna go forward and do my best
My dms are always open for any questions or just to talk

are thinking about me, what some people that i don't talk much nowadays think of me now? did i hurt them, did i make them happy, do some of them has any negative feelings towards me?
I don't really bother much with those questions but still very curious.

Heh funi that every year starting from 2022 has something big stuff happening with me online, from dramas to finding new friend groups.
2024 feels sorta more peaceful about dramas, but instead it was about relationship (both love and friends).
I wondering what people from past-

As for my life outside of internet, it's sucks lmao, got into argument with friend bc of mistake i made to him, and i bassicly left mostly by myself for last year of studying yay.

Speaking about zom, at this point i really don't want get relationship back, with how he acting recently with trying get into new relationship so he could expierence the "love" again. I will not get into details but zom is def need much more time to accept things

Some people know i got into relationship with bonely, and it's going pretty good i would say, well, def feel better then being with zom, ofc it's not same thing but glad at least not worry about zom's constant overthinking and focus more on my problem (tho i still struggling ye)

I don't really have much to say recently, yeah some stuff are happening behind the scene but never had urge to write it here.
So rn i might just do a thread with random thoughts that will come to mind about recent stuff (and in general):

Do any of you have a feeling, that you missing something? Doing something wrong?
It's just, i have a lot of things on my mind lately, i mostly able to control myself and stay calm, but i have weird empty feeling for some reason

Yea, that's true

Sometimes, i hope i will be able to find company where i would feel good
It's a hard for me to find one right now heh

Grah could my brain stop overthink about stuff
Why do i have sometime feel useless and not needed.
Or feel like others do better then me.

And rn it feels wrong that i broke up with him, for some reason..
I just don't understand on what should i do in this situation.
Only thing i can do is just wait i guess.

For some reason i worried when zom saying he is gonna come back soon while also don't have any plan on how to do it. His parents don't want him to use social media and he made a promise. So only way he can actually come back is talk with them, which i have no idea how it will go.

doodle from 3ds i made a while ago about overthinking ye

I don't have much to say rn (and not much people here)
Just man i wish i could NOT overthink stuff and just accept stuff more easily
I really sometimes just don't understand what i even want and bc of that go into too much thinking